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IWHISWHID I JUST READ THE BEST FYOLAI BOOK OH MY STARCLANNNNN
Anyways I'll work on chapter 2 today :3333

Honestly I'm just gonna rant here u can skip if u want (most likely u will lol)

But like after reading the fyolai book I feel like I wanna b in a relationship again 😭😭😭

I once used to b in a relationship with a girl, we started as friends but I think when I was comforting her through passing notes bc she was venting she straight up confess to me 👁️👄👁️

I, bc I was like rlyy young prolly primary one in school or 2 (7 or 8yrs old)
Didn't thought it through and accepted,

Anddd so we b came a thing.

Well, soon I started contemplating our relationship one year later I think, I don't remember bc we known each other for 3 yrs and a half,

So we broke up, we didn't take it srsly bc we was young so we still stayed as friends ☺️☺️

Well she told me she came out as transgender or smth and told me not tell my brother,

My brother b came curious and found out that she was transgender,
I told her that and she asked my brother (this is all happening through text)

My brother told me to tell her that he didn't know so I told her that it was just a prank, she became sensitive over the yrs so she took the prank srsly and yea.

At school during recess I told her the truth that it wasn't actually a prank and told her Abt the deal with me and my brother,

She passed me a note for me to read it during class (we were in different classes during primary 3 or I think this occured in primary 4 idk)

In the note she told me she forgave me and then confessed her love for me.

Her second confession 😨

Bc I was older, like 10 or 9 idk I thought it through,
I came to the conclusion that I prolly like her too and accepted her confession.

That was the worst mistake ever.

So we got back together. My brother don't even know that I told her the truth till this day 😭😭

Well once we kinda had..a weird moment.

And after that she became like, idk, weird, like sus..

She kept saying dirty things to me which made me uncomfortable.

I was actually aroace but now I think I'm more like asexual.
And I always felt abit left out when she left me to hangout with her friends when she she C's them..I think I have a problem😭

And I gave her more attention to her than my brother so my brother was mad Abt that.

She even had the audacity to send a video in tt saying i makes her feel left out LIKE WHAT😨😨

I wanted to break up with her bc of how we started to fall apart,
She also didn't even wait for us at the foyer during dismissal anymore or come to my house anymore.

When she played with us cos on Roblox, bc I was to scared to break up with her irl, I told her during that time,

I was hoping maybe we could still b friends butttt like I told u, she grew sensitive over the yrs so she ignored me

Which I was completely fine with, FOR NOW.

sometimes I feel like she thinks I still feel jealous w her time to time but I assure u I didn't gaf Abt her.

She got into a new relationship and idrc much.

I decided once to friend her back in Roblox after unfriending her, I texted her and she told me why am I texting her and that she was taken or smth,

Ig she thought I wanted to get back w her but rlly I was bored.
Sometimes she joined me and my brother in a game.

Well that stopped, but.

After starting to read Wattpad, usually my life was still interesting w/o her bc my mother would scream and hit me when I disobey her,

But I suddenly got used to it and now my life is so boring, I remember when my life was extra interesting by having such a close friend.

I have a new best friend but we only been friends for like 1 yr and a half andd my life is still boring,

My new bestie isn't the same, she has different personality, always busy 24/7, she likes kpop.

Boringggggggg

And reading that fyolai book and seeing Fyodor and Nikolai's relationship makes me realize that being single was actually soooooooo boring

I now prefer romanticness than sexual shit so ig I'm asexual now,

I'm always shy around my ex when we used to b friends or a thing even tho we had been friends for so long,

I wondered what would happen if I just told her I was uncomfortable with the way she talk to me.

It's fine tho, with Wattpad and my delusional ass I have a little imaginary friend that is like a little Dazai to a pm Dazai.

👏👏👏 Can't believe if u actually just read all that.

I'll work on chapter 2 now so bye 🤧🤧

Word count: 900 😨