Loving in silence

CHAPTER 1

Yumi’s point of view

I’m used to be called a Japanese or have a race. Dahil siguro yun sa personal features ko at sa pananamit ko. Everytime I would attend school, ang palaging kong suot ay iyong Japanese styled uniform rin, na ang pang ibaba ay abot sa aking tuhod. Even if I would go somewhere, like shopping or library, I would never wear anything short, I would always prefer something like long dresses. At para naman sa aking physical features, hindi rin ako mahilig mag tali ng buhok, lagi akong naka lugay, I only tie my hair in summers or in heated times. I have a long, pure black, straight hair and a simple straight bangs, sa haba nga ng buhok ko ay ma-aabot na ito sa bewang ko. And the thing they said about my eyes, it's true, my eyes is as black as the night, maybe even darker, I could say that my hair is as dark as my eyes, maybe that’s why some say that I look like a Japanese traditional doll. And as for my face...it definitely doesn't look like a Filipina.

Kaya dati, nag taka rin ako kung bakit ako ganito. I tried asking my mother if I had a race pero lagi niya lang akong iniilingan at sinasabing “My dear, you don't have a race. This? This is pure beauty. You are beautiful my love”.

It was hard to believe because everytime I would look at the mirror, I keep seeing a girl that's so different from others, but when I got older, I started to learn to accept things till it didn't bother me anymore. I considered it normal.

                              __**__

Month’s passed and I’m now in 2nd year of collage. Wala namang nag bago, katulad ng sinimulan ko ay sa may bintana parin ako naka upo, same seatmate, walang ring kaibigan which is I think fine. But there is one thing na nagbago.

Those two ‘Beyonce and Azekiel’ started to loof around me since the day that I started my first year. Mas lumala na ang pag buntot nila sakin ngayon, minsan nga ay wala na akong nagagawa kundi sumama nalang sakanila kapag inaaya nila ako sa lunch, as in hindi ka nila titigilan. Minsan napapangiti naman nila ako, a forced smile I guess? Mahilig rin silang mag bangayan at halos mura lang ang marinig ko sa kada usapan nila, meron rin namang matino pero siguro minsan lang. Natatawa na rin ako don sa part na they always struggle pag wala silang assignment or pag exam na at wala silang mai-sasagot. Nag kokopyahan rin sila.

And also another thing, since my first day of college, don ko lang nalaman na iyong mataray pala na babae na nasungitan ko noong introduction ko ay si Ariana Xanthea, she was a bully in our campus pala, and aside from her, she always has this 2 more people beside her.

Sky redmond and Draco Xandros.

Sky I think is her bff while the Draco guy is her cousin. Palagi silang iniiwasan sa campus. Sky and Ariana looked so arrogant and annoying while Draco...he seems cold, gloomy but scary. He always stands straight with confidence even when walking around the campus, he keeps a strong eye contacts to anyone he talks with, and always keeps his formal neat posture. I also heard that his the vice president in the Criminology building. Hindi siya masyadong napapa away, 'di gaya nila Ariana and Sky. Minsan lang din ito bumuntot sa dalawa but I have never seen him in a fight, meron lang isang beses nong may naka tapon ng coffee sakanya, damn, the girl was so scared at him, halos lumuhod na ito sa harapan niya para mapatawad lang, pahiya talaga ang babae. They don't wanna mess with him, his silent but deadly.

Silent...

Baka napagkamalan lang siyang bully dahil cousin siya ni Ariana and that he’s with them sometimes? Well I don't care.

Buti nalang at hindi na kami mag kaklase ng mga iyon ngayong second year.

“Wuy, spacing out na naman si kupal oh” Sindak sakin ni Ezekiel na hindi ko namalayang nasa harap ko na pala. “Lagi lagi nalang. Alam kong gwapo ako pero please lang? Wag pahalata?” Biro niya sakin.