save your tears

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by inheavenbetweenbooks

by inheavenbetweenbooks

when I get the chance to hurt her, that makes me smile inside.

when I tug her hair, ripping it off and leaving strands of it on the ground, it makes me feel a sparkle of happiness because it's the only way in which I can get a reaction out of her.

everytime I manage to bother her I feel satisfied, but nothing could compare to her little imperfect smile.

i went on a school trip and I was forced to share the hotel room with her because she was the only one left as a roommate.

at first , I hated the idea and acted indifferent in her presence. I would just mind my own business everytime we had some free time to spare in our bedrooms and I would ignore her completely.

during that holiday, something had me reevaluating my thoughts about her

I came back into the hotel room after showering and I caught her dancing to a song with the volume up

she was twirling around and smiling. in that moment a dangerous thought crossed my mind

"God, she's really so beautiful."

I got lost in my own mind as she kept dancing across the room, until she stumbled over me and I leaned my hands to avoid her falling

"oh, you're here..."

I noticed her face reddening as she flinched and became more rigid. I realized it was because she was so afraid of me, given that I always teased her and made her feel bad my actions

I take the chance to improve my behaviour

"I'm here, and.. you were so cute while dancing"

"oh, uhm, thanks..."

"listen, I'm sorry for all the times I made you feel bad. I have been acting really fucking stupid. The fact is; i did everything to try and get a reaction out of you because i'm so attracted to you. For some dumb reason, I was convinced I liked seeing you cry, but when I saw you dancing I realized I love your smile more. Please, forgive me for that, if you can."

my speech leaves her astonished and I wait for her reply, hoping she isn't too mad at me for acting like a jerk

"only to one condition tho..."

"yes, what is it?"

"dance with me now. I might forgive you if you're at least a good dancer"

she smirks and I have to fight the impulse of kissing the corner of her mouth where the smile started

"alright princess. Let's do this"

I smile taking her hand and placing a gentle kiss on it , as the music starts again