A hypochondriac and an insomniac at the same damn time . I'm out of my mind having a psychedelic thought while I got a blunt in my mouth . A life of abstinence is terrifying hate facing reality because its full of pain and regret hating every decision I make because i lose a piece of myself whenever I do something that I'm told . Then a voice said you are going to be screwed. So I was introduced to my best friends now called narcotic it put me in a dimension where I was the king of my life it's help me make millions it helped me found confidence which made me become the envy of all my so called friends it made life beautiful it made life worth living it helped me have a happy family but as my best friend I thought you can do no wrong to me most of the thing you help me accomplish you took away from me. I had a happy family now I'm lonely with Aids I have all my millions but no one to share it with my wife and child ask why did you cheat .
I didn't life just cheated me I was trying to isolate myself from this oh so terrifying life but I guess it found a loophole and brung me back to this disaster of my life. Now I'm clean so I can save myself but now I'm telling my story what's the point I have nothing but this infection that ruined so much relationship give me that gun I'm saying my last goodbye .A life of no purpose a waste of time forget my life Goodbye I'm going to dead BLAST. But I can help someone else in the position .
For now I'll keep my suicide thoughts to my self .
