A story written by the comments

I'm sorry

I love you I'm sorry by Gracie Abrams

Harumi's POV

It was one in the morning right now and insane staring at the ceiling waiting in vain for sleep to come. Realistically I wasn't gonna get to sleep tonight to be honest I haven't slept properly since well since that night....

 Flashback

I was on the Destinies Bounty, my hair in its usual messy bun and my no make-up make-up look. The kitchen was quiet as everyone else was asleep in their rooms but I couldn't sleep not now. I'm filled with a sickening guilt which was consuming me more and more, every second I can feel it more and more to the point where I am wondering if it is all really worth it. 

Do I really want this 

Do I really want to bring back the dark Lord just to hurt Lloyd and get my revenge

Is it really worth it.....

Yes yes you want this you have given your life to this and you are to deep now to stop the voice in my head said. He took everyone from you. Ninjago isn't save under his protection there is war, fighting and unrest you need to save them save them from this. 

"No no no! They are safe the ninja are good people they are doing a good job and this won't fix anything it won't bring them back" I whispered crying and trying to reason with myself. 

 "Harumi?" 

 God no not right now I can't deal with him right now please please just be in my head. I was praying inside my head wishing with all my heart that he wasn't really there and I was just crazy.

Nope he is there, his blonde hair even more messy than normal and his green eyes reflecting the light on the candle beside me. God he was adorable I just wanted to but him and never let go. When I was with Lloyd the rest of the world was left behind and it was just us. Me and him. Forever. But I was going to bring back his father and probably kill him or people he loved all because that's what I thought would fill this good in my heart. Eight year old me was wrong though. Hurting Lloyd wouldn't fill this ache that never left nothing ever would or could but maybe ....

Just maybe loving him could help healing it?

Suddenly I felt my legs stand up and walk across the kitchen to him and I just wrapped my arms around his neck and fell into his strong arms. I let myself break down in his arms. I talked about my parents dying and how the emperor and empress never loved it cared for me and he listened. 

He didn't say it will get better or any of the classic thing I have heard all my life but he just listened and hugged me harder . Then he swept me up and took me to his bedroom where we cuddle and fell asleep in each other's arms and in that moment I was the quiet one or the made princess only Harumi and for once that was good enough for someone.

End of flashback

He was so good to me and I ..... I broke him even more I never really understood his much he was hurting ..... I .... I never asked I was sobbing. Why did I do that to him he never deserved it any of it.

"I'm. .... I'm so so sorry Lloyd you deserved so much better than me I'm sorry" I dryer into the darkness. Words can't fix what I broke, smiles can cover up the tears but can't erase the pain and now now I realise I love him. I realised to late. He's not mine any more and never will be. 

I'm sorry

Hey I just had my surgery and am doing ok so here's a update I haven't been updating this book of my other one recently so hope you enjoy and I should update under the mask tonight or in a few days xxx