Steven F. || Thoughts

Chapter six

A/n || ik ik I trolled yall lmao. Okok sorry doe

As I cried, he hugged me tighter. I picked my head off of his chest as my lips crashed into his. I opened my eyes and realized it was raudel. I caught steven the corner of my eye, his eyes were watery. I pushed raudel away and ran after steven. "Steven please. I can explain!" I yelled starting to sob again. "Please don't leave me." I whispered as I just stood in the corner to his house, tears streaming down my cheeks. I though raudel was steven. I felt someone tap on my shoulder so I turned around. It was sky, diddy, aaron and Daniel stretching their arms out for a hug, a took the hugs one by one. I was about to hug Daniel when I caught Raudel in the corner of my eyes rubbing his neck, with his eyes full of worry. I just shrugged and hugged Daniel. I was on my way back to the house when my phone went off. I had a message from an unknown number.
A- anonymous || M- me

A- hey boo, steven came in with his eyes all puffed up just right now.
I knew it was jackie so I saved her number. I checked the time, 8:26. Steven was out for an hour? I dialed her number and after three rings she answered.
J- jackie || M- me

J- hey what happened?
I could hear Steven's sobbing in the background.
M- a song came on...
J- so Steven's crying because of a song? STEVEN YOU ARE SO IMMATURE!!

She yelled at steven the last part.

M- no no no no no. I started crying and I ran out. I felt someone hug me so I just picked my head up and my lips crashed into his.

J- so he's crying because you kissed him?

M- no, that's the thing. I didn't kiss him. I kissed raudel. (Whispering the last part)

J- fuck. NEVERMIND STEVEN, TAKE THAT BACK. (Yelling the last part) K be there in 5.

M- k bye.

After a little while, daniel, sky, raudel, diddy, aaron and I were sitting on the sofa. Jackie walked in and sat down on a spot next to Daniel (wink wink) I was on my phone but jackie ripped it out of my hands, tossed it at raudel and pulled me up the stairs. "Which one's your room?" She asked looking at the last door on the hall way. "That one." I said as I pointed to the door with a shit ton of decoration and my name with huge ass letters. We walked inside and sat down on the beanbag. "Hey why didn't you kiss raudel?" Asked jackie looking at me. "I didn't mean to. I know I kissed him but I thought it was steven. But it wasn't." I sighed as my voice started to break. I looked up and wiped the one tear that was streaming down with my black colored nail. "I know you probably didn't mean it, but he's really bad. Wanna go see him?" Jackie asked. "No." I said. I know it sounded mean but I didn't want to see steven, I didn't want him to look at me with hate for my mistake. "Fuck it we're going." Jackie said getting up. "You are, I'm not I said also getting up. "Lol k." Said jackie as she called my phone. I didn't have it but Raudel answered since she gave it to him. She put him on speaker, turned my way, and put her other hand on her hip. "Hey" said Raudel. "Aye. This bitch don't wanna go see steven." She said. "Ight I got chu." Said Raudel in an evil tone. "Ight, cici I'm on instagram. You don't want me to leak out your number do you?" He said, laughing. "Shit. Ok. I'll go see steven." I said. Knowing raudel was Steven's friend, he would have a lot of followers. We walked out of the house and headed towards jackie's. She opened the door and walked to Steven's room. He was sitting on his bed, staring into the wall. "S-Steven?" I said, voice cracking. "Go away." He said, still sobbing. "I, uh, I came to see you." I said looking down. "I don't want you to see me like this." He said, not even bothering to look my way. "Hey Imma be in my room." Jackie whispered in my ear. She closed the door behind her and left me and steven there. "Cici go away. You don't know how embarrassing it is for you to see me like this." He said, finally taking a glance at me. Not at my face, but at my wrists. (Yeah, sorry guys =/ ) I had totally forgetton about it. "W-what are you staring at?" I asked nervously looking at my wrists. There was thin, dark red lines all over them. "I uh, I have to go." I said heading to the door.