Just Him&I: In a Universe of Cruelty

Part 26

Scientific studies suggest that revenge, as a psychological phenomenon, can influence a person's emotional state and cognitive processes. There is evidence that the desire for revenge may be associated with the activation of neurophysiological mechanisms, including the amygdala and the prefrontal cortex. However, most research emphasizes the negative consequences of revenge for both individuals and society, perpetuating intractable conflicts and damaging interpersonal relationships.

"Even though I am currently in a detention center, waiting for further judgment over my soul, I know what the verdict will be—life imprisonment. And, to be honest, I couldn't care less about what they want to do.
While she is basking in the warmth of her cozy bed, I am freezing here. Her comfort will have to wait when she receives a very interesting video that will appear on her phone in just a few dozen hours. I am brimming with enthusiasm, eagerly anticipating her reaction. Although I cannot see, I will feel her until my last breath.

I don't know what day it is, how long I've been here, what the weather is like, or whether it's dawn or not. I don't sleep; no one brings me food. No one speaks to me, and my hand hurts because that bastard broke it when they tracked me down. I had no idea they were following me or knew my movements around the city.
Even though I cannot do anything now, cannot kidnap her or threaten her to finally kill her, I just want her to suffer longer. I know how attached she is to him and how much she trusts him. Maybe it's all just guilt over what her biological father did, but I don't care.
When I chose the dark side, I knew long before that there were many risks—from a bullet to the heart to prison. I was fully prepared for it, and nothing has changed now. He warned me, and he himself perished. I am crippled. We were stopped from changing this filthy world.

If you're reading this, remember that an antihero will always be painted as the villain when the story is told by the hero. But that's not true. There's nothing good in me."

P.S. Be careful, darling, when you sleep at night. Maybe someone is watching you. I feel your fear and know you suspect my presence. Your pulse quickens. Am I hiding in the closet or standing behind the door? Or maybe tonight I'll choose a pillow to end your life—or would it be more humane to use a knife so I can savor your sweet screams of pain?
Merry Christmas!

With love,
Brock Rumlow