Maybe my life is telling me lies about who I like. I just need to think this out. I was actually getting frustrated. I needed to express my feeling out in a poem that always helps me.I grabbed my pen and my notebook that I keep all of my poems and I just wrote my thoughts and feelings.
I love you both,
With the same passion,
The same equableness
You both are the same,
But yet different somehow.
I want to have you both,
But I can only choose one...
How do I choose?
One is here, while the other is there.
You are supportive, while the other is smart.
They make me laugh, while you are serious.
I want you, and I want them.
I can't have you both,
And it frustrates me so.
So how can I possibly choose?
Between you both?
When you two are all I need in life?
How can I live without any of you?
I need you both,
But people tell me to choose...
So don't be angry or hate me if I can't choose you...
I started to tear up…I guess it was the thought of choosing and losing one. I decided to go ask my brother Zayn.I run down the steps almost tripping over my feet but surprisingly I make it to him without falling. I explain everything to him and he just nods his head as I explain. He stays silent in my head I’m thinking that he won’t understand but in my heart I know he will. Then I hear his voice. He says If you love two people at the same time, choose the second cause if you really loved the first, you wouldn't have fallen for the second. I just am amazed at what he said it made so much sense. He just stands up and walks away. I just go to my room and lay down on my bed starring at the ceiling taking in what he said. I did love Drew but I also loved Niall.I decided to go on the date with drew and see how I feel.
Niall’s P.O.V.
I just keep walking back and forth in my room. Not knowing how I feel about her. I mean I just didn’t know every part me wants me to say I love her but there’s something holding me back. I guess my mom heard my footsteps and she enters my room.
Mom-Niall what’s wrong sweetie? She says sitting me down on my bed.
Just thinking…
Mom-About a girl?
Yes and I don’t if I should love her or just be friends…
Mom-If when you see her you automatically smile then sorry to say but you’re in love.
How could it be I just met her today! I huffed and lay back on my bed.
Mom-Its love at first sight. She walks out my room and I just try to sleep.
THE NEXT MORNING------------------------------
Capella’s P.O.V.
I woke up and just started walking towards my bathroom as I enter I turn on the light and look at my reflection and I didn’t look that bad so I decided to just get dressed. I put on black jeans a gray tang top a mini leather jacket and a gray beanie. I only but on eyeliner. I just walk out the house and don’t even rush to school. I enter the school 10 minutes early as I enter Niall sees me and comes walking towards me it’s funny because right when he says me he smiled. The thing is so did I…
Niall-Hello Mrs. Rose. I laugh at how he said that.
Why hello Mr.Horan or should I say Mr. Horney.
Niall-Hey that’s mean he laughs as he says that.
Well you had it coming one way or another.
Niall-Okay sure whatever so did you hear?
Hear what?
Niall-That Stacy got with the new kid named Drew.
Wait what? Are you serious?
Niall-Yeah …
I’ll be right back Niall.I walked away and started crying bursting out into tears. As I walk to the bathroom there they are making out.
What the fuck drew?!?
Drew-It’s not what you see!
So you’re telling I didn’t just see you stuffing your tongue through this hoe’s mouth?
Drew-Okay maybe it is what you saw.
Stacy-Listen loser he doesn’t love you and never did it was a bet the whole time so yeah go away!
Drew is that true? I can feel the tears coming back.
Drew-Yes but then I started to like you. Please give me another chance!
You know what FUCK YOU AND YOUR SHIT AND I HOPE YOUR HAPPY WITH THIS HOE! I scream and run away. I just let myself fall to the floor. I start crying in my palms and then I see Niall running down the hallway crying. He runs to me and sits on the floor next to me.
Niall-Are you okay????
Yeah why are you crying?
Niall-Because I went up to Drew and told that he is a dick and that he just lost the best thing in his life. We started fighting and I ended up beating his ass but then 3 boys came behind me and pushed me to the floor and started kicking me then I got up quick enough and started to sprint but before I did that I told Drew that now that best thing might be mine…
What wait did you just say?!?
Niall-Listen Capella I have loved you since I saw you I guess you can call it love at first sight and I am going to say something that’s is completely honest If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up every day. To the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, The touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine...Knowing that I could never find that feeling, with anyone other than you.
I was speechless at what he said but I loved it…I love him…I just don’t know what to say or even how I would say it?
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