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How could I ever let you go
Is it too late to let you know
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Bangag pa rin ako kahit ngayon na pauwi na ako. Wala akong maisip dahil yung utak parang linipad yata ng hangin at dinala sa panahon kung saan ayoko nang balikan.
5 years ago, I made a mistake. It was my choice tho. It was the hardest decision I've ever made.
I don't know how, why, and when did it happened. I just woke up one day and realize that I'm falling..
Falling out of love for him.
I tried to figure out why I am changing. Swear, God knows how much I tried to work things out. I don't want to break him.
I didn't mean to break him.
But as much as I wanted to save him from pain and agony break ups give, I can't. It's not that I don't want to.
I just can't live my life saving him while I'm dying.
I gaved up. I let go and moved on..
..until now.
Lahat lahat nagbalik. Yung pangamba ko, yung takot ko, yung mga pag-aalala ko.
Pero ganun pa man, magiging ipokrita ako kung sasabihin kong hindi ako masaya. Oo, masaya ako. There's still a part me that missed him. That wanted to see him. And a part of me that wanted to have a second chance.
Kahit pa napaka imposible.
Pumasok na ako sa kwarto ko at nahiga muna. Feeling ko pagod na pagod ako. Di na ako nag-abalang magbihis muna, at di na rin ako kakain dahil mukhang hindi yata ako gugutumin ngayon.
I was still thinking about him when my eyes landed on that pink medium size box near my closet.
"Ano nga kayang laman nito?" I thought as I sat up and open the box.
Oh! Memories. Specifically, HIS memories.
Isa-isa kong kinuha yung mga gamit na binigay niya sa akin. Andito pa nga pala ang mga 'to, di ko pa naitatapon.
Di ko kayang itapon.
Habang hawak hawak ko yung mga bagay na yun, unti unti namang bumalik sa akin ang lahat hanggang sa makita ko si spongebob.
"Hello Mr. Spongebob? Long time no see." Baliw na nga yata ako. Pati kase stuff toys kinakausap ko na.
Hayy.. Naalala ko pa nun..
That moment..
Andito kami sa mall ngayon ni Rence at nag di-date. Oo, ganito lang kami mag date, simple lang.
Simpleng daldalan, simpleng kulitan at simpleng landian na sinasabayan ng pag-pi-PDA.
