Don't Mess With The Fat Girl!

Do what makes you...

Do what makes you...makes you what? Happy? You? Yes, do it!

I'm just randomly sitting in my room listening to Flashlight by the great Jessie and I'm writing this because just a couple minutes ago I caught myself singing, just like i do all the time but this time I felt like writing this and omfg this is so awkward because I just painted my nails and I'm trying not to ruin them but I really want to write this and I'm just randomly speaking, saying this all this stuff I'm writing outloud and I'm sounding like I'm trying to make a fake british accent but in fact this is the accent I accidentally make when I talk to myself in english, because even though I'm portuguese I feel way more comfortable speaking in english than in portuguese so weird but oh well wtv what I wanted to say is that you should do what makes you happy, I mean obviously you shouldn't do it if what makes you happy is to hurt someone or murder someone but I mean like the good stuff... or examples, writing, designing, reading, acting, SINGING!

I was just singing, and I love this way too much, everyone says I have a nice voice I should do something about it, but in fact I'm so shy and I can rarely sing in public and I hate to hear my voice when its recorded but this damn feeling I get when I'm all alone in my room singing by myself, singing like those words are everything to me, everything I need right there, at that exact moment... well that is one of the best feelings ever. I was just singing a portuguese song and after that I realized how much it makes me happy to sing and feel free and I caught myself smiling and crying at the same time because of how good it is and how much of a simple thing it is and people don't talk about simple things often, people are so afraid to talk about simple little things but most of the time simple little things are the things that matter the most that connect you to happeniss even if it's just a temporary happiness... and what I'm trying to say with this is that no matter what, no matter if you are good at it or not, fuck the ones who judge you for doing what you love, if you are not hurting anyone, if you are not hurting yourself, just do the fucking things that make you happy! Be happy when you can, I know and believe me i know that its hard sometimes but everyone everyone has that, even if it is just a little second of the day, that a little something brings joy... and it sounds so stupid especially if you know my current condition, I'm a total fucked up person atm, depression and a lot of shit, but at this moment, the moment I'm writing this, I'm feeling quite okay, because I just did what I love, what makes me happy and I'm currently doing, i mean I'm writing this and I love to write... so I hope you guys get my point and I hope that you have at least a small smile in your face when you finish reading this and remember you may not be okay tomorrow, you may know that tomorrow you will go back to feeling shitty again or even in the 5 minutes, but if you are feeling okay right now, enjoy it, do what you love, be happy ♥