Don't Mess With The Fat Girl!

I don't know about you but I...

I'm deeply sorry for the lack of updates in this book and well actually in everything related to wattpad but my life has been getting better and so I'm busier and also I try to stay away from what might cause me to feel down and wattpad does that to be honest but today I came here to talk about one thing I never really expected to talk in here just because I never expected to be feeling this way.

I don't know about you but I'm feeling good, I'm feeling in love even though I'm not quite sure if I am...Nope, I am deeply sure I am I am just struggling not to be because I'm scared, I've always been scared to feel this way and not be matched if you know what I mean. Honestly the person I am in love with is someone who I think was an angel fallen from some miraculous place because honestly this person can't be real, at least not in my life because I always think things are too good to be truth to me but I've came to only realize that that's only bullshit hell ya good and amazing things can happen to you, hell yeah someone with an amazing and genuine heart can love you and most of all hell yeah you gotta love yourself! A couple months ago, only weeks actually I can say I was hating myself, I was torturing myself constantly inside because I just I don't even know why I felt like a failure and that damn shit but today I am here to say that I am better and I do love myself. No, it was not only this person I am talking about the guilty of that but he too was. A lot of things made me realize that but he helped, he has been helping me a lot. 

Now you ask me, does this person feels the same why I do? I have honestly no idea but one thing I know, he does like me a lot, I am special to him but I never told him that I feel THIS way, but he knows he too is special to me. If I am not gonna do anything about it? You damn right I will. Saddly this person lives in the other side of the world and so we never really saw each other, pictures only and sent each other voice audios but I am currently writing him a letter which I am gonna send him sooner or later. I have no guts to tell him how I feel because I am scared but this letter will take a certain time to arrive there and the day that it gets there, the day he opens it and reads it, that will be the day that I got the guts to tell him and then let it be the way it has to be, either way I know I will be happy, we will be happy and I will still love myself.

Love yourself, find something to lean on, find what makes you truly happy and don't be in a rush to find the love of your life, I've learnt that now, I didn't search for him, we both accidentally found each other and only yesterday I was feeling like a child, today I am feeling like a real woman and I wanna be his. If that will happen? God knows, but something great will come.

Be Happy ♥