Atish e Ishq (Fire of love)

Chapter no 29

"Burhan I think we need to talk"
Heyam said as soon as they entered their room

"Yes"
Burhan sat down on the bed and asked her to sit beside him. Their kids were gone to see the haveli with Zaeem and Zubariya

"Burhan what were they saying at the breakfast table"
She looked into his eyes

"Ignore it I won't let that happen"
He started taking out his medicine from the drawer

"And you better shouldn't because I won't let that happen ever. The people who didn't think about their son you think they would treat my children nicely huh. Don't you know how much they hate me"
She exclaimed angrily

"I agree with what you're saying but I don't think they hate you now"
Listening to him Heyam started getting up but Burhan held her hand and made her sit beside him

"Baby I am not supporting them. You are more important to me and you know that. But think when you came into this haveli at that time you also hated them but then eventually you accepted them. The same thing happened with them. Now they don't hate you or me so don't carry this burden on your heart that somebody hates you it hurts right. You are the most loveable thing in the world to me and I will always take your opinion regarding our children. You and I would mutually decide about their future. I would never let them feel forced to marry anyone because their parents want it. When they become mature then I will ask them about their opinion and if their opinion is what Hamza said then also I won't back out not because he used to be my best friend but because when my whole family was against you I still loved you and couldn't stop myself. I knew you would be the best life partner for me at that time I was mature enough. I wouldn't be saying this before yesterday because I knew they hated me and my children if at that time any of my children said to marry one of them then I would have straight away denied that and would never let that happen but now if they themselves are ready and if only if my children wants it then I won't stop them surely I would be immensely hurt by this and you too but it's their life babe not ours and the most important thing is who would marry our children? You know about our house and financial condition. I can't afford a good house. I know Allah will give my children a lot. I am worried because how can they build a house in no time and about Alayna people don't let the parents of a girl live peacefully. You also know we can't marry our daughter in the Islamic way. I want my children to have everything. I don't want any of them to take money from their in-laws but at least they would get married at the right age and have something for their children. If I had money I would have never said it but now I am helpless. You know Heyam how difficult it is to lead a life without money and a good house. I know that now you or me doesn't have any demands but our children does and they should have it. It's their right. You and me has suppressed our feelings so much that we don't even like anything for ourselves now. Do you remember the last thing we bought for ourselves. Our lives revolves around our children only and I want them to be happy am I wrong Heyam? I know that if they marry any of their daughters to Aliyan or Afaan then their lives would become difficult too and that would be an injustice. About sons I am not sure if they earn good then it's okay but about Alayna, I would agree if she wants it. After their marriage I can die peacefully"
He held her hands in his and looked at her with teary eyes

"Don't talk about death Burhan. What will I do with you. I can't even imagine that"
She kept her palm on his mouth

"I know what you're saying is not wrong but what about my self-respect Burhan. If they want it then I won't stop them too but I would be badly hurt at that time. These people character assassinated me bullied me and you and harmed us physically and mentally both. For Allah's sake I can forgive them for physical torture but about my character I would never forgive them. Burhan you know when you got engaged to Raima I raised my hands to make Dua for you and asked Allah to let you and her stay together forever and I would have done the same on your wedding too because my self-respect is very important to me the guy who was getting married to another woman I couldn't ask for him in my Dua too. I thought I was not that low to cry for someone who didn't want me. I only had you at that time but still I was ready to give up but I can't see my children sad. If they want it then I will forget my self-respect for them too"
She hid her face in her palms and started sobbing