solar x ruin ( original )

part 20: a baby bump

( I really want to write this week! So your going to get a lot of this!)

( Warning: smut, panic attack, Anxiety, self harm, think bad about your self.)

Ruin pov:

It's been a while since we happened.. we get what ever was making Galaxy do these things.. we get rid of it...I think... But that not a thing we need to worry about right now..

I starting to have a baby bump and... I looked... Ugly... I'm to fat... They won't like me if I looked like that.. they just staying with me cuz I'm having a baby... They think I'm ugly.. they don't like you... They staying cuz that's their baby but the min it's out they will leave you..

I took a deep breath... Looking myself in the mirror... God I looked ugly, fat, horrible... I put a big sweater on and walked out... Putting on a smile.. I have to or they will leave me ... Be happy ruin.. your fine..

I walked down stairs and walked to the kitchen.. I saw star and solar making out.. Galaxy eating..

" Morning froggy " Galaxy smiled at me.. I smiled back.. I walked over and kissed him on the head.. then walked over to solar and star

" You two done?.. I need a cup"

They were in front of the cabinet with the cups..

They stopped blushed brightly.. I giggled kissing them both and they both move.. and sat down..

I grabbed a cup of water and sat down..

" Are you not going to eat little flower?" I looked at him

I tried not to eat so I don't get fat.. I haven't ate in a week... I don't want to eat

" Oh.. umm I not hungry!" I smiled at them, they looked worried

" Baby you haven't ate in week.."

" Oh umm w-well I... I have ate! It's just I never eat in front of you guys! I eat things I like.."

" We been making your favorite food tho.. froggy don't lie to us.."

" I'm not hungry ok!" I was mad I don't want to eat.. they will think I'm fat.. I went to the room.. they looked worried.. damn it.. I went to the bathroom.. locking myself in there... I grabbed a pocket knife cutting my self...I can't do this anymore... I'm ugly, I'm fat... Everyone hates me.... They are going to leave you now.. you make them worry to much.. They think you're annoying... They just want the baby not you never you... You should die.. just die.. I slowly put the knife up to me neck..

Someone knock on the door.

I jumped and put the knife away.

" O-one second!" I tried to clean up as fast as I can.. I cleaned my wrist and put something that will keep it from bleeding.. then I put a smile on and opened the door smiling at them..

" My love are you ok?" I nodded

" Of course I am! I just have to use the bathroom!"

" Oh..ok.. umm sorry for making you mad little flower.."

" Oh it's ok and I'm not mad! I get it your worried for me! Let's go eat then! If it makes you happy I will eat!"

" No you don't have t-"