Benefits.

Chapter Three

A few days past, Steven called me the day after, he wanted to say he was sorry and that he loved me. He tried to persuade me to take him back and that things would be different but I refused to allow him back in my life. I packed his things out of pure anger after Jack just walked out on me; and then I cried as I carried all of Steven's things out to the front yard and chucked them all over my yard. Nothing had pissed me off more than the other day. And when I saw that interview come out the next morning, I was so close to shutting down everything. Internet, phone, TV I was going to go back to the freaking stone age so I could just get away from it all. I mean it was every where. Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, my friends called me one after the other talking about "Jadison". But, now I was taking on the persona of someone who hated Jack Gilinsky instead of someone who was his best friend so every time someone said "Are you happy for them?" I would reply with, "Sure they fucking deserve each other." And hang up. But today was the day of the party. And Jack was supposed to call today. I constantly checked my phone as I rummaged through my clothes looking for someinething totally hot to wear. I had to pull off the complete aesthetic so I got up early this morning, went to get my nails done, got my hair dye, did my hair myself, this time I bleeched it and dyed it a deep pastel blue. I found a black leather skirt that came to about mid thigh on me, but I made it a high wasted skirt so there was more leg showing. And sure I was uncomfortable but I was hot as hell. I got a bustier and it really cute, pink lace and glitter, totally not me but I'm out for blood tonight. I went out after I got my nails done and found some doc martens that were floral and fabric, the florwers were pink and the background was black so they were perfect. I aslo invested about 5 bucks at Walmart for some tights so that I wouldn't be too uncomfortable. My rose tattoo on the inside of my arm was visible tonight, and so was my tattoos on my back, some what anyway. I looked in the mirror and decided that a Lana Del Rey styled make up would be best so that I could have some fun instead of worry about melting. I let my hair fall naturally with it's curls and I adorned it with a pink flower crown from hot topic. And that was my look. Black and pink, with a tinge of blue, a bright red lipstick. Damn I was hot. I was so confident I took a selfie, because in the right light you couldn't see the bruises and I felt really nice. I did however include the bruises for a tumblr selfie in which I captioned "My ghost where'd you go, I can't find you in the bodies sleepin' next to me. What happened to the soul that you used to be?" Those words are lyrics to a song called Ghost, I used those words because tumblr is the only place I vent about Jack and Steven, and I have a pretty good sized following, so people talk to me about what I'm feeling and right now I'm feeling ghosty. I even posted to snapchat "see you later" with a little kissy face and a peace sign. About an hour past, and I spent it taking selfies. Jack finally decided to call me.
I answered quickly because I was already on my phone, and turned down my Arctic Monkeys vinyl, "He-h-hello?" My heart was pounding I could wait to hear his voice for the first time in days, I felt like I was jonesing for a drug.
Jack was smiling I could tell and I wanted to see it. "Hey, you still coming tonight?"
I joked a little, "Oh yes. Will Jadison be attending? I heard they were the hottest new couple." I knew that would take a stab at him.
Jack's smile was gone, "Yes. But will Jarah be there as well? Because Madison isn't staying long."
I laughed, "Maybe."
Jack was smiling again, " You know, a lot of my fans want us together."
I smiled, "Yeah I know. I saw twitter." We talked for only a few minutes more before he had to go get Madison for the party. I had to go pick up Cara, Hailey, and Dehlia. These three girls are my best friends and I would never have attended this party without them. They had all gotten ready together. So it was an easy pick up at Hailey's house. On our way to the party we had a game plan to come to.
Cara climbed in the back seat because Dehlia called shot gun, and Cara commented on my look, "Shit you're fierce tonight, Sarah."
Hailey, was nervous as usual, "Your hair looks good, Sarah."
I smilied at the both of them and Dehlia and said, "Thanks. So Dehlia, Hailey I have something I need to tell you girls that Cara already knows. And I don't want your guys to get upset with me."
Dehlia said, "Wait! Hold that thought we gotta take a selfie." So we took several all in different poses and faces, silly onces, smiley ones, blank ones, an aesthetic one and a few scrapped ones because Hailey kept blinking.
Finally I just said it out loud for the first time, "Jack and I have been sleeping together for pretty much all four years that we've known each other."
Dehlia almost lost it, "How long has Cara known?!"
Cara laughed hard because Hailey and Dehlia's faces were flabbergasted, "Four years."
Hailey put her seat belt on, "I kinda figured" she sighed, "You too just look at each other like you want tear each other apart!"
Dehlia laughed, "Look at you, you're trying to show Madison up aren't you?"
I laughed as I drove down the street to the stop sign, "Oh Dehlia, you have no idea. I'm going to show them both up, I'm going to own that fucking party."
Cara shook her head at me, "So you're going send that subliminal message across the room?"
I checked my phone then made a right turn, "Oh believe me, Madison is going to know her man wants me way more than he wants her. Making eyes is an understatement." Dehlia put some music on for us to jam to on our way to the party and I was so thankful she chose the Halsey radio on pandora. Driving to a party when I'm trying to put on a fierce persona is much easier with Lana and Melanie and Hayley by my side.
When I pulled into Jack's drive way, we were clearly not the first but I took up a huge amount of space right in front of his front door because I'm a bitch like that tonight. We walked in to a crowd of people and alcohol we stayed together and I led them to where Jack would most likely be. Eyes followed us the entire way and the moment I laid eyes on Jack and Madison I was 100% in fierce mode. Nothing could stop me now. Jack Johnson jumped up to come and say hello to me.
Jack J said, "Sarah! I was worried you wouldn't be here." Believe it or not but he was actually shorter than me. So I had to look down at him a little but it was only a few inches difference.
I smiled at him, "Jack could you show us where the drinks are?" I don't drink, everyone knows I do not drink, and when Jack G heard me ask for alcohol, his head snapped up in my direction. Ouer eyes met and I swear the already hot room grew into a pit of lava. I tried to not crumble under the pressure of his eyes staring me down for the words that left my mouth. My friends were also a little surprised that I said that.
Cara said, "Damn it Sarah, I'm gonna have say no to alcohol tonight so we can get freaking home."
Dehlia offered to stay sober to drive and Cara was so thankful. Jack J said, "Sarah are you sure you want a drink?" He was prettt hesitant as he began to show me to the kitchen.
I sighed, "Jack after the week I've had I need the hardest shit you've got." I paused seeing his face turn from nervous to even hand a red solo cup to concerned for my wellbeing.
Jack J said, "Come on we should talk about this." I rolled my eyes and grabbed some vodka and a cup.
"Jack I'm not talking about anything. I'm having fun tonight." The liquor that I pour into a cup and then directly down my throat warmed me from the inside out and tasted like the souls of my dirty enemies. I felt instantly sick but I kept pouring more, and drinking more and pretty soon my friends and I were dancing and having a good time and Jack J didn't leave our side and we were taking selfies and laughing. And Jack G watched my every move. Madison tried to come dance with us once but when she came over to us I decided to stumble back to the kitchen to find the fireball because the vodka was getting old quick. Needless to say I was "turnt up." Around 2 am Madison left and so did half the attendies at the party. Only close friends stayed and my friends and I stayed of course. I hadn't drank much after 1 am because I didn't want to be falling over drunk when Jack G decided to finally talk to me. But when their song 'Like That' came on everyone was dancing even Jack G. I went over to him as soon as it started and began dancing in front of him like I had many times before. In the middle of my dance, he dragged me out away from the crowd of people and we disappeared into his room. He began to kiss me hard and he held my face so I couldn't move but I didn't care. I held onto his wrists to keep from letting my jelly legs let me fall. He bit down on my lower lip and sucked on it because my lipstick already came off. Jack then move his arms around me holding me closely, and I kissed his next and what was visible of his chest, I then laid my head against his chest and hummed along with the music from down stairs.
Jack whispered, "Damn you Sarah."
I laughed against his skin and said, "Jack," I traced cirles of his button up shirt, "I love you, and I know you won't say it back but I really do and when you're ready you come for me. Come get me and we'll fly away some where nice and be together." I made a plane with my hand and flew it up over his head, his eyes followed my hand as it flew down slowly and finally to the zipper of his jeans. "Shall we?" I looked up at him, he was tense but he was also smiling at the same time.
Jack said, "No we shouldn't. Sarah I think you should get some sleep. Sober up." His hand cupped my cheek and my hand covered his, "Look at you, you drank tonight, why? Why would you do that? You never do that. What happened with Steven?"
I stayed in his grip because it was what I had longed for these past few days but all I wanted to do was lay down right now, "Jack, Jack can we cuddle please? Jack, Steven is gone I kicked him out and you're gone too, you're gone, you left me there. I needed you." Jack took care of me, he knew I hated sleeping in clothes so he got me one of his old t shirts and pair of pj pants that I just refused to wear and opted for my lacey underwear. He helped get undressed and helped me put his shirt on because let's face it I was drunk. He went over to the drawer that he reserved for me and put my shoes and clothes in there and got my make up wipes that I left there just for me, and he helped me take my make up off which was a challenge because he is inpaired when it comes to make up. And then he got in his pjs on which consisted of boxers, and I was happy about that. Jack laid me down and climbed into bed with me. He brought me into his arms and our skin zapped each other with static electric heat. We laughed a little too hard about that but my heart knew it had to be a sign. Even through my blurred and slurred drunk vision I could see his huge smile and chiseled features.
Jack kissed my cheek, he moved hair out of my eyes, "I'm sorry Sarah." I began to fall asleep and maybe it was the alcohol or maybe it was real, but I swear I heard him say, "I love you."

******Hey guys, here's chapter three, it's much longer than the rest but I really thought this chapter ought to be good. Also I hope you love it as much as I do. Also I wrote this on my phone so excuse my typos or misspellings*****