So I woke up to a small tap on my shoulder. I looked up to see my sister Alli. Who hasnt spoke to me in a year might I mind you. "Yeah?" I said my voice having sleep piercing my voice.
"So I know I haven't talked to you in a while but I want to know why. Dad and mum told me not to talk to you but I still don't know why. Can you tell me before they wake up?"
I couldn't believe she wasn't allowed to talk to me. She didnt hate me at all. "If I tell you dont tell ANYONE"
She nodded and looked at me with big eyes. I had to tell her everything. I mean she is 14 I think she will be able to take it.
"Ok Alli i was diagnosed with cancer last year. And I couldn't tell mum and dad." I could see a tear fall down her cheek. But I continued and rubbed circles on her back when she sat on my lap. "Then I wanted to live life so I tried kissing someone. But not just anyone, it was Mikey" Alli squealed and started fangirling. I giggled and shushed her. "Anyway mum and dad found out and screamed at me. And Mikey thought I liked him I didn't though. And so he thought we were together so he told everyone and they bullied me. So when it was to much. I self harmed. Mum found me about to bleed out ad she took me to the hospital and asked me why I did it. And if I told her why then she would know about my cancer so I couldn't. She said she disowned me." As I said the last part in a whisper I started sobbing. Alli rubbed my back and grabbed a sharpie of my binder. She grabbed my wrist and drew a butterfly with her name beside it. "Have you heard of the butterfly project?" She asked and I just nodded scared that if I spoke sobs would spill.
"I will be your butterfly if you will he mine." She held her arm out and pulled up her sleave revealing gashes and scars going all up her arm. The word worthless written by scars. I just bent down and cried harder. "Baby girl you are far from worthless"
I held her tight in my arms scared that if I let go I would shatter into millions of pieces.
"My turn huh" she said with a small laugh that I could tell was fake and meant to lighten up the tension.
I nodded " Yes please"
She let out a heavy sigh. "Well last year when mum and dad said I couldn't talk to you I turned to talking to my friend Grace." Me and Alli talked about everything until my cancer when thoughts she hated me.
"One day i was crying into her arms and she looked up at me and she said 'You are to beautiful to be crying' And kissed me. We have been dating for 11 months now. And on our 6 month anniversary we came out to school. Everyone bullied us. Teachers didn't let us hang out on school grounds and people told me I was worthless for being a lesbian."
"Well I hate that. But congratulations on you and Grace!"
"Thanx bubba"
"Can I ask you a funny yet serious question?"
"Umm sure" she replied hesitantly and gave me a confused look. But I am interested.
"Did she take your virginity?"
She jumped up gasping and hitting me with a pillow. "Luke thats personal!"
"Well....did she?" I asked with my eyebrows wiggling. I knew she would have to answer if I did that.
"Okay yes she did. But dont tell mum or dad."
She added the last part quickly. "They don't talk to me so it's okay"
I grabbed the sharpie and drew her butterfly and my name.
"So you can't talk to me?" I questioned. She shook her head no frowning.
"Ok meet me okay the doctor's office in one hour for my appt. And you can go with me." She nodded kissed my head ad left.
*******At the doctor's*****
"Mr. Hemmings, Dr. Irwin is ready for you." I grabbed my sister's hand leading her to the same place as per usual.
"Hey Luke. Who is this young lady" Ashton asked me.
"My sister. Alli this is Dr. Irwin."
"Nice to meet you. Please, call me Ashton." Ashton said sticking out his hand. Alli shook it and nodded. She was very shy so her not saying anything did not surprised me.
Ashton gave me the normal tests. I noticed Alli flirting with him. So I nudged her. "What" she whisper-shouted."You have a girlfriend and he has a boyfriend."
She knew what I meant and I could see that she felt bad for flirting. She lifted her sleeve up and rubbed until one of her scabbed over scars came undone. She started pouring blood. I panicked and just sat there. Ashton turned around and yelled "What the hell!"
He quickly grabbed a.band aid and covered it up and wiped away the blood. "Why did you do that?" He asked looking genuinely concerned. "I'm flirting with a gay guy and I have a girlfriend." She whispers tears pricking her eyes."Oh hunny it's ok. I would flirt with me too" Ashton giggled and wrapped his arms around her giving het a tight squeeze.
"Okay the results are in." Ashton said as the machine beaped.
Ashton's jaw dropped."Luke you have one year left at the most"
Alli grabbed me and cried."No I can't loose my brother!!!!!" We cried together.
"Luke if you do chemo then you will have two or three years."
I shook my head. "No. I saw what chemo did to my grandfather. I will not do that for millions of dollars!"
Ashton and Alli look at e in shock.
"Luke that is your chance to living longer." Ashton said.
"Do you understand what you are giving up?"
"Yes I do."
