A summer for change

Part ten

"Its just not fair guys." I cry into the skype camera to Blaire and Kailee. Who are both glowing "you guys get romance this summer and I get a little girl whose dying."

"You care about her. Same thing." Blaire tells me, chewing on a pen. She must be in the office.

"I just hate that I got attached and now I may loose her."

"Everything happens for a reason. And we've dealt with death before. Nothing is to big for our God."

"Ya ya ya. Cause you know what its like to loose someone. If I'm not mistaken you're the only one here who hasn't lost someone" I remark almost rudely "Wheres Mercer?" I ask Blaire changing the subject before she can respond.

"He went to get us lunch. " She grins. "He's so much sweeter then I first expected."

"Never judge a book by its cover." Kailee mumbles absentmindedly.

"And whats up with you and you're guy kailee? Why are you so quiet anyways?" Blaire snips obviously slightly ticked off by our comment.

"He's leaving for the weekend. Its the first time he's left."

"Oh after a whole four days" Blaire challenges. And let the fight begin.

"Hey! I don't like change you know that."

" I dont like change" Blaire mimics "Get over it kailee it happened five years ago."

I watch Kailee gape at her comment. "Really Blaire thats just low!" I tell blaire in defensive.

"I don't need you to defend me." Kailee states crossing her arms.

"What you get a boyfriend and you're to good for me now?"

"I didnt say that."

"I'm done with this conversation." Blaire states

"Fine bye!" I snap off the skype camera.

Ugh! I throw my self back on my bed. I then head to my closet and pull on my running shoes. I need a jog.

I run along the road collecting my thoughts. I felt like maybe I hadn't had life as figured out as I originally thought. I mean. My life has always been glass half full. Even through my parents divorce. I was never "depressed" over it. But why do I feel like garbage now? A little fight with Kailee and Blaire? Thats not something I'm not used to. Our petty arguments usually only last a few hours anyway. I don't know why I'm so distraught all of a sudden. I don't get depressed over life.

"Do you have to leave?" I whine to Beck.

"Sorry. But I'll be back sunday night to see you." He soothes me hugging me tightly.

"Don't go." I cry into his chest. I close my eyes because I don't want to see the guilty look I'm creating on his face.

"Please don't make this hard." He whispers.

"I'm sorry." I wipe my eyes.

"I'll try to call," He says on last time before disappearing for the weekend.

"What do you want to do today?" Mercer asks me after my argument with the girls. Gosh they can be so difficult sometimes. Like really. Kailee gets a boyfriend and acts like she doesn't need us. Darcy thinks shes the only hurting person in this world. I'm just done with both of them.

"I don't know. What do you want to do?" I ask him, giving him the chance to lead.

"Let me surprise you then."

"Okay, well then you have free reign tonight."

"Good." He kisses my cheek before turning back to the computer typing away at something.