Where You At? //brothers best friend//

shi

12:22 PM
MAIMI,FLORIDA
JAYVIONS CRIB

                          kaidens pov

Im in jaydas office ,packaging orders i used it as an acuse to stay and listen to thier covo with thier dad i know like damn that some nosy ass she but i dunno i felt like i needed to whats poppin nother the less i put on my airpods bobbing my head so that nothing was suspisous as i packed  the orders adding the gift cards thank you cards all that shii from the corner of my eye i cant help but stare at jayda
'Damn she so pretty' i thought to myself
'Kaiden no she got on attitude she dont fw focuss on lola or some' i said scolding nyself but i couldnt stopped staring her smile she had dimples they were soooo cute and her eyes i could get lost in them ngl they just so captivating i  continue subtly stare at her luckily my dreads long as hell so they cover my eyes
I raked my eyes over her figure nothing wierd just..admiring it ok wait admiring sounds like im a pedo,i was observing untill my eyes landed on her arms she was fixing her sleaves since she had rolled them when she was eaten breakfast i see somethings on her inner arms
Cuts? Bruises? Scars? Does she harm herself?
Shi maybe that's way jayvion ass was yapping about ,damn thats wow alot of cuts and bruises why they look fresh...mhm would I be,able to handle that trauma frfr? No I can ,can I?
Ughhhh I feel bad for her I know whatever it is that happened to her is bad the fact jayvion never told me the whole shit ,but it's not like ima ask her I aint even close with her frfr I wish she could open up but it looks like she never even fully open up to her own brother
Jayvion used to show me pictures when they were still a happy big family her smile was soooo cute and her eyes looked like they had stars in them and compared to the pictures to when she was alone in her mommas house 5-6years ago it looks like that light in her eyes just disappeared like she looks dead not physically but mentally ion know if that makes sense nowadays she looks better then that but I can see it deep inside she still feels pain
I wish I could help her but I got my own shi to deal with my life pretty fucked up to im glad jayvion let me crash at his crib,but anyway I kept on listening onto thier conversation
I hear Jayvion arguing about how he ain't gonna call his mom his mom and his father saying thier invited to thuer mom's party
'Dont they all hate her or some' kaiden thought to himself
"Yall going end of discussion " I hear jayvions dad speak not even two second later jayda dropped the call jayvion walked out the room and jayda walked upstairs going into her room and locking the door,i was sure she might go to her brother's room bc that's what she did this morning at 2am cause she feels safe in jayvions room.maybe all that shit them bad memories flowing back in her mind,shit I can't leave her alone what if does something stupid
After 5mins I can't stand the silence in her office i heard ryan and jayvion dip in jayvions whip I decided to let Jay cool of ,ryan Is more of a comforter then me I decided to check on jayda I walk upstairs and knock on the door
"Who is it" I hear jaydas vioce it sounds strianed like she's crying
"Its kaiden ,please let me in I just wanna check on you" I said using the most gentle and calmest vioce I could use
"I'm fine" she said cutting of short
"Your not jayda I can see it in your eyes,I'm not saying you have to be fine everyday your human but don't shut people out most importantly don't shut your feeling out" I said laying my head against the door,wtf I'm I doing yes it's the right thing to do but I would never do this for now one maybe for jayvion and ryan but her? I havent done shi like this for lola when I was fucking with her
After a moment of unbearable silence a muffled sobbing I can't stand it and open the door to see jayda on the floor rocking back and forth sobbing ,a blade on the floor I immediately grabbed the blade tossing it out the window I walk up to her slowly being careful not to startle her
"Hey" I Siad gently "come here"i sat on the floor infront of her opening my arms for her ,tbh I expected her to look at me and diss me but the most unexpected thing happened she crawled into my arms crying on my chest I wrapped my arms around her in a comfortable way rocking her back and forth gently
"Shhh it's okay nothing gonna happen me ryan and jayvion are here to protect you" I say in a reassuringly tone
"You think I'm weak right?" She asked suddenly sniffling
"No I think your a normal human being who has feelings like a normal human would,why would you think that?" I said  trying my best to comfort her
"She called me weak saying I cried for everything and  I should be grateful I'm still alive after she would.." she paused
"Hit you?" I asked I felt her not against my chest
"I understand hitting a child as discipline but she hated me and did everything to show that her husband hit me harassed me burnt me and she watched with a proud smile..i just wanted to make her proud..I just wanted her to love me i wanted to know how it feels to be loved" she said her vioce cracking up
"Hey hey hey who said your not loved look how jayvion loves you your his life line he depends on you as much as you depend on him your friends love you they look so happy everything they see you" I said reassuringly making her face me her face tear stained and her eyes puffy and red"
"They used to tell me that they don't live me thier pretending they just feel pity for me I should just hang myself no one would miss me" she said looking away but I forced her to look at me
"Now you know that's some bullshit,everyone who's been around you enjoys being around you if they didn't love you they wouldn't be here rn right" I said resuringly I pulled her closer she just replied with a 'Mhm' and I was good with that cause tbh I was running out of wise words to sat i just kept hugging her tossing some reassuring words like
'Let it all out' ' it's okay' 'you are loved' all Dat fr
By 4pm jayda had fallen asleep i Carried her to her bed and tucked her in ,i would have changed her into more comfortable clothes but I aint Diddy fr sooo I just gave her my hoodie after she was all tucked in a left a bottle of water with a sticky note saying 'hope you get better from kaiden'
I left her room walking downstairs I  don't see jayvion anyway I'm stressed shit jayvion is...alot to deal with when his tryna hide his feelings act tough or pissed when actually his hurting..
After 20mins of me pacing around I here his car park ryan got into the house first and gave me a look
'It's bad' ryan mouthed
'You couldn't help him?' I mouthed back wich ryan shook his head no
Fuck now I'm cooked
I'm not good with words,never been I went outside to the backyard to this little rose garden that had a brick fence that Jay loved going to clear his mind I knew he'd be there ,and like I assumed his there sitting on the brick wall , I sat next to him watching him struggle to light his blunt I immediately grab it throwing it far
"What the fuck is your problem" jayvion said clearly pissed off
"I know we smoke to smoke but you know damn while I'm not letting you smoke to numb your pain" I responded keeping my tone normal
"I Don't know what pain you talking  about" jayvion said looking away
"Jayvion don't fucking play dumb with me you know what type of pain I'm talking bout" I said a bit more sternly after  a minute of him not responding I sighed
"Jay fuck it you know I aint good with dealing with feelings too but what I know is it aint right to bottle all your pain and trauma inside of you" I said trying to make my tone less aggressive
"But you do the same" jayvion said
"Damn aight" I responded he was right I do ,do the same shi I'm worse then him
But I aint wanna burden anyone with my own problems
"That's not the point jay" I said before continuing
"Why can't you go to that house just for one day" I asked I honestly  had a long ass list why he wouldn't jayvion told me bits and pieces of his childhood so I could just assume it was hell ,but I wanna hear his reason from his own lips
"I just can't what if now I can't help jayda" jayvion said clasping his hands together looking stressed
"What If it's a trap what if she's gonna be worse then how she was?" Jayvion continued ,I listened intently shit it's not everyday I get this nigga to open up
"Jay,I understand why you feel that way and shi but listen here I'm not letting you go to that little bitch ass party without me we will protect jayda and I don't think that women is brave enough to fuck with you or jayda" I said resuringly
"You got this gang don't let her fuck you up" I continued
"Thank you bro" jayvion said as we exchanged a young dap up looking at the fields ,Jay had a big ass yard so there was a bunch of views to look at we just sat there for minutes just taking in the views before jayvion breaks the silence
"Have you spoken to your brother recently" jayvion asked me ,I immediately tensed up gripping my fist together
"No" I responded my tone more aggressive then I intended it to be
"Why his been tryna contact you for weeks" jayvion stated with a sigh
"You know I don't fw him bro." I responded
"He wants to apologize for what he did" jayvion responded
"Fuck his apology" I smacked my teeth ,one thing that me and jayvion didn't have in common was that his situation could never be forgiven mine can but it's not like the trauma just disappears after that
"I feel like his apology is just for him to look like the golden boy he always was,and to show my parents he 'always picks up my broken pieces" I responded long story short my older brother ethan was the golden boy top achiever sports all dat, I was to but ofcource ethan outshinned me but I for real didn't care untill everything in my life had to be about ethan
'BE like ethan' 'why ain't you like ethan' 'ethan this and dat'
Everyday and shi that was fucking with my patience to deal with people and i would always get cut off if Ethan name gets tossed in a convo shit Lola left me for Erham the list goes on
But I aint got time to yap bout all Dat
"Call him" jayvion said suddenly
"Hell nah" I immediately responded
"Ngga-" jayvion was cut off by the sound of my phone ringing  I took my phone out my pocket to see my mom calling  I answered the phone
"Whats wrong" I said
"Hi to you too" momma kaiden responded
"Mhm" I said
"Whats wrong with you" momma kaiden asked with a little bit of sterness in her vioce
"You don't call unless something happened so what you want" kaiden responded dryly his mom sighed before speaking
"There's this old friend of mine who's throwing a party so  I want all of yall coming"
"Ethan is coming?" I asked
" I said all of yall didn't I?"
"Mhm...I'll check my schefule" I responded  dropping the call and sucking my teeth me and Jay continued with our normal conversation finally lighting a blunt and just looking at our views
"Aint you picking up taytay soon" jayvion said looking at his watch
Shit my little sister
"Uhm yh in about 20mins she out" I say checking the time
"My nigga what you waiting for ,Obama? Get moving " jayvions says pushing me foward I flip him off with a chuckle and jog to my car to fetch my little baby taylor