Beat of My Heart (A Josh Dun Fanfic)

A Knock at My Window

I was laying in my bed, in the dark of night, the only light coming from my computer, I was entranced in some movie on Netflix when I heard a tapping at my window. My head snapped to the right, towards the window, where I caught a shadow of tangled hair, and broad shoulders. Josh.

I got up to let him in, a look of disbelief plastered on my face. "Josh, how in God's name did you manage to get up here?" I spoke just above a whisper.

"Shh, I just wanted somewhere quiet. It's too loud everywhere else but here, plus I brought food," He said, a guilty smile adorning his face as he held up the Taco Bell bag.

I stifled a chuckle. Josh and I were best friends, but we never really talked about his home life, I knew that it wasn't the greatest, and I knew also not to talk about it, no matter how much I wanted to know what really went on.

I took the bag from him, and motioned him to my bed. I smoothed out the sheets I was previously laying under, patting the right side of the bed for him to sit down. He slipped his shoes off, and laid on his side, while I sat against the headboard. We ate in silence for a few minutes, the only sounds being the crinkle of the wrappers, and the slurp of soda. I was deep in thought about what could have possibly led Josh to come here at this ungodly hour when I was hit in the shoulder with a taco wrapper. Slight giggles came from the man on my right. I playfully scowled and he stuck his tongue out.

One thing led to the next and there were soon taco wrappers strewn across my room. "Are you going home tonight?" I asked, looking at the ceiling. I already knew the answer.

"Can I stay?" Josh asked. He always asked, even though he always knew the answer.

I got up off my bed and walked to my closet. I chucked a pair of sweats and a shirt in Josh's direction. He reached over for them and changed. We then laid there in comfortable silence once again, a little closer this time. I crawled back under the blankets, pulling them up to my chin, and turned to look at Josh.

"I think I'm going to go to sleep now," I sighed.

"Can I sleep here?" He asked, even though it was a regular thing for him to fall asleep beside me.

I appreciated the fact that he was always so cautious around me and that he always felt it was necessary to ask, even if he already knew the answer. "Of course you can, nothing's ever stopped you from sleeping with me before," I said.

Before realizing what I had said, Josh was already groaning as he slid underneath the sheets, burying his face into the pillow.

My face turned beet-red, and I did my best to cover up what I had said, "I-I mean, you know, in the same bed..." I trailed off.

He turned his head and flashed a small smile to me, "Yeah, I know what you meant. Now hush, I'm sleeping," He closed his eyes, feigning sleep.

While I was tired, I also wanted to stay awake and talk to Josh. He knew everything about me, yet I felt like he was still guarded around me. Not that that was a bad thing, but I just sometimes wish he trusted me more. I contemplated asking him about his home life, but I know that he will come around and tell me about it when he's ready. Then I noticed that the red-haired boy next to me was lost in his sleep. I decided to follow suit and was soon taken over by sleep as well. Whispering a soft good night before I reached sleep.