I actually can't take this anymore I'm so tired of all of the past situations that haunt me every single day
I'm growing so tired of waking up every day and the first thing I remember is
I don't want to die because I know that I'll be in hell and if I cut myself my parents will get so worried
I don't want my parents to worry about me
Maybe all of this will stop when the war is over and I'll finally return back? But I doubt it will happen
Maybe all of this is just nostalgia. I'm blinded by wanting to go back even though the worst situations possible happened back there
Or maybe I need help which I won't get because my mom doesn't believe in therapists
Everyday is getting worse i
I'm sorry
