Cocktails of Emotion

JUST SAY IT!

I am sitting on a bench, in my favourite park, waiting for her. My right leg is shaking, up and down, up and down. It has turned into a habit and happens when I am nervous.

I have to tell her. It's now or never. She needs to know the truth. I can not not tell her and keep it to myself forever.

Bringing me out of my reverie, I felt a hand on my shoulder. She's here.

Shit! How long have I been thinking?!

" Why are you sweating? " she asked sitting beside me.

" Oh! " I said, my hand moving up to my forehead as a reflex, " It's a very hot weather.. " smiling sheepishly.

It was a December evening, and the bench we were sitting on was under the shade of a tree,

Ah! I could have come up with a better remark!

"You never cease to confuse me!", she chuckled heartily.

Tell her! My inner self screams at me.

I am so lost in talking to her that I just couldn't build up the courage.

Six months later..

"So.. We got placed!!" she excitedly rushed towards me and pulled me into a hug.

"Yeah, we did it! But it's sad, we're in different states altogether! What do you have to say about that?"

"I know," she frowns, "but c'mon we need to build our future, so we have to do it in a way or other. This being it, is the best way! Cheer up!"

How can she not see it on my face? I have been told to have the most readable face and she has been with me for years now, and.. huh!

Years passing by..

It was easier in the beginning. Talking to her, late night phone calls and Skype chats. But as time flew, lives became difficult and busier, and we started loosing touch..

Wish I had told her.. seems that this' the end..

Eight years later..

It was yesterday that I bumped into her while looking for a book in a bookstore. I couldn't have been more blessed. We decided to meet up today. And here I am, determined to tell her, finally!

I have to say it today. She may leave after hearing it. It's been years, she must have moved on in her life. But I still have to tell her. I have kept it to myself for too long.

A light tap on my shoulder pulled me out of my thoughts. I felt a strong sense of déjà vu as I looked at her. There can't be anything more gorgeous that the face I am looking at right now.

"Hey!" she sat on the chair across the table. I had booked a table at a fancy restaurant just to make the evening more memorable.

I stare at her.

"Hello?", she waves at me, "Are you listening?"

I am. 

I wanted to say, but the words didn't get out of my mouth.

"It feels like I am speaking to a wall! Say something!"

"I love you", I blurted out before even thinking!

She stood up from her chair. Eyes furious with anger, she moved towards me.

I was ready to receive a slap, which was the most I could expect at the moment.

She grabbed my wrist, making me stand. Before I could process what was happening, she cupped my cheeks in her hands and her lips landed on mine. I was in a state of awe, at first, but I soon returned the kiss. After all, that was something I had been wanting since the day I met her.

She withdrew, smacking my shoulder lightly, "Stupid! I have been waiting to hear that for 11 whole years! I love you too..!!"

"Shhh!!" I placed my finger on her lips, held her by her waist, and pulled her towards me, only to kiss her again.

One year later..

I am sitting in the Mandap, waiting for her. Everyone around me is so happy. My family, her family, all our friends and acquaintances. Everyone!

We are finally getting married.

She walks through the door towards the lawn where the mandap is put up.

Stunned. I am so stunned. Because she looks stunning.

The day is here. It is hard to believe. But the reality is, it's happening! Nothing can be more beautiful. Life couldn't be more beautiful.

"You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it."