Hidden Tears

The two young men

chapter 1

"yes of course go right ahead"

"Don't worry about me"

"I'm fine really"

"Oh I'll help"

"Don't worry you can count on me "

Why is it that i'm like this , why is it that no matter who I'm with i can't show my feelings to them. Day after day seems like i'm only here to please others. I cry everyday for mother and father since their death , when they were still alive i always did what i thought would bring them a smile on their faces. Even though they no longer walk with the living , the world doesn't seem to have stop , its as if they never lived or died, like no body notice their death and continue with their life's. My mother and father maybe gone but i'm still here and i still am how i was before their death. It was said that i would have my grandmother come live with me until i came of age or got married . But i decide to moved to London with her instead , to make things easier for her. I never wanted to cause trouble , i was always well behaved and i didn't want to make my poor grandmother leave her beautiful home for me.. so i packed what i need and went to London . It isn't very from from here really its only 3hr 15 mins to London , my town is called Bakewell. I am now 16 years old and i still put others needs before mine , maybe that's why no one sees my pain. No one sees the tears that i hide so well. I ask once again... Why am i this way? Ho can i keep living like this? I hide my true feelings I'm but a princess who is about to lose her crown....to darkness.......

" Good morning lady Maya have you slept well " -Bridget my personal maid- No, i cried to much to have enough sleep . I hope its not noticeable " Yes of course i did i had wonderful rest thanks for asking" I had nightmares of those who killed parents . "well that's good then my lady " Bridget my personal maid said happily . " Say is grandmother awake yet, it seems i slept an hour more..hehe why is that ? " I hear voices downstairs , grandmother's and two others " Oh yes well you seemed a little tired last night my lady ,so i got orders to wake you up an hour later" Bridget said. " Oh why thank you Bridget , i was a bit tired but i'm better now thanks for your worries". Bridget is a very loyal and caring maid , she's like a friend sometimes and my grandmother is a wonderful kind person she taught me to see everyone as equals. "you're welcome my lady ..oops i left breakfast out in the hallway i'll be right back " *opens-closes door* mmm i let my guard down , how could i showed them i was tired..well thats not gonna happen again. *signs* Today i promise grandmother i would meet with the two men for a cup of tea out in the garden *gets off bed and enters the shower* But i never wanted this yet ... I agree without letting her know about my feelings or opinion on this matter. "Lady Maya are you done yet breakfast is ready " Bridget was saying in the background. * finishing showering*