(My feels were all other he place while writing this. So....... FEELS WARNING! FEELS WARNING! FEELS WARNING! )
Earlier his evening, I was YourF___ingNightmare's broadcast on YouNow. (This is my description of the video) He was talking about how you shouldn't kill yourself because of things happening in the present. You should hold on and live the life the future gives you.
And that got me thinking (This is what started my feels)
I thought of how the people I care about would react and feel if they found out I had committed suicide. How my parents would react upon finding my corpse. How my grandparents would react hearing that their princess (their nickname for me) had killed herself. How my best friend Fern would react coming back to her home after vacation only to hear the her best friend was dead.
I cried thinking about it, but some part of me is glad I thought about it. It reminded me that I have people who really care about me. That I have people to talk to if I need help with depression.
Suicide is not the answer and should not be put as a insult, joke, or thought of as a thing for attention. Because it's something that can rip someone apart. It's like a Dementor, it's sucks all happiness out of you. Depression is a war that you fight, and even if you're wounded and feel weak, you need to keep fighting those demons until you are victorious. Hold on to your life and one day, you will find the light that will lead you out of the dark and into a life where you are happy, safe, alive, and can call yourself in a survivor.
