My Sultaan

32. Insecurities

Noor-ul-aan got a call from her father and left the room. She stepped inside the study room, where Zayn was working on his laptop.

It was an hour after Hasnain entered the study room and Zayn left, and he saw Noor-ul-aan talking on the phone.

He could only see her back, and she didn't notice him, so he hugged her from behind, and she tried to turn back

"shhh It's me Noor-e-jaan" by listening to his voice, and she clammed down herself "Allah hafiz abbu" and took the call.

"Is everything is fine?" Hasnain asked her, resting his chin on her shoulder, if she should "yes, my family plans for a holiday trip"after hearing this,

Hasnain inquired, "for what?" By slipping his hands to her hair,
Noor-ul-aan said
"Before Trauma, I loved traveling but we couldn't make out because of my fear, but now I don't have that fear, so I can enjoy it." She opened her locks and murmured,

he questioned, "Where are we going?"

"Not you, just me and my parents" with a serious expression.

"What did you say, Begum?"

"Yes, I want to enjoy my life because since that incident, I have never gone anywhere anywhere, but now I want to," she casually said.

"Without me?" Hasnain asked and continued "Noor, you can't leave me like this?" Pulling back from the hug and turning her in front of him.

Noor-ul-aan said, "Ah, finally you remember, Mr Khan, you have a wife."

"Sorry, Noor-e-jaan,"

she cut him in the midst and said,
"For what are you saying this sorry?" With a furious expression, she asked him.

"Jaanam, but I am trying"

Noor-ul-aan "What are you trying? Do you have any clue about my favorite color?" He was startled because they didn't know much about each other and rescued their past.

"You don't even know my favorite color. This is how we both run our marriage." Before she could continue, he took her up in his arms, one hand around her waist and her hands around his neck, and walked her to their chamber.

When they got to their room, he made her sit on the couch again, and she was prepared to yell at him.

Hasnain answered, "Mera baccha, listen to me first," and she disregarded him again and began ranting at him.

He looked at her lips. Noor-ul-aan was startled by the action and turned completely scarlet as a result of his sudden peek on her lips.

She pouted her face, refused to say anything, and went near the bed, pretending to sleep.

Where he got a call from his secretary about almost work done by Noor-ul-aan, hasnain said maid get dinner for them

"Noor get up let's have dinner"

She refused to reply, so he approached her and pulled the cover away from her face, only to reveal her red eyes, nose, and cheeks, as well as the coughing that continued.

Hasnain was surprised to see her in tears, "Jaan, what happened?"

He slowly took her in his arms and made her sit on his lap; he could move her with one hand because she was light weight and short height.

"Why are you weeping Baccha? Jaanam, look at me." Where she gazed at him while sobbing, he wiped her tears and took her face on both pams "why are you crying."

Eventually she spoke "you won't love me, right" He was astonished to hear these remarks from her mouth
"what are you saying Jaan"

She continues, "Yes, you won't love me." And begin pounding his chest

"Noor I can't believe you're saying this to me,"

she said again. "Yes, you don't love me because I'm not as fair as other girls. Why did you marry me? and I am soo low height and don't know how to love my own husband I have always been angry and bad  to you" she said while crying, he was shocked to listen to this all

"Noor I can't believe you're saying this to me, Baccha. First of all, your height doesn't matter to me since I know you read frictional stories and they also have a height gap like we do, and I read one of your books about how he loves his little wife.Regarding your skin tone I don't like fair-skinned girls; instead, I like you with Indian skin tone, Your skin tone matches mine perfectly, and in love no partner see what your skin colour or height love is from our hearts, jaanam and I know you love me; you just need time to make up your mind, which is why I want to give you time. As for your behavior, I know it is the same as mine towards my family, and I try to change it when possible, but I trust you will make it out of this situation. I realize we both don't have time to spend, but that doesn't mean I won't love you. Stop saying that andI LOVE YOU AND I WILL BE LOVING YOU UNTIL MY SOUL IS WITH MY BODY AND AFTER DEATH I WILL ASKING ALLAH TO MAKE ME ONLY YOUR AND YOU ONLY MINE UNDERSTAND" with a dominating voice.

Noor-ul-aan said "I don't see you love show me where you loved me"

he moved forward to her lips and asked

"may I"

she was in shock and didn't say anything to him only blinked her eyes and he kiss on neck and was stuck on a collar bone

"aaahhhh"

unholy sound left by her mouth and she put her hands on her mouth and she put her hands on her mouth and he moved back only to see her reaction,

she was blushing and surprised and didn't understand anything because it was unexpected by him

"see Jaan, I have given you the most beautiful tattoo on your neck and now you can't ask that you don't see my love if you want I can do many more things that make you feel pleasure and pain at the same time" before he could finish the sentence, she put her palm over his mouth.

"I don't mean you to give me this" by pointing the hickey on the neck

"so you don't like me showing love to you" with a melancholy

"Nooo I don't mean that"He asked her again,

"Then what do you mean?" Thinning brows.

Noor-ul-aan explain "I mean I want to spend quality of time with you I also want to enjoy every moment with you like going on dates, long night drive, cooking together and knowing eachother more better than others but you always busy with your own work and when you come to room you look soo tried and I don't want to distrib you" she shared with him.

Hasnain recognizes that he can't offer her enough time, but he also tries his best to give her.

He attempts to make out time every Sunday but gets stuck with some or the other work. He understands her very well but also tries to classify himself.

"Aara, mera baacha I know that I don't get time to send with you, but faith me, I was unable to get out, but from now on, I will, I am really sorry for that, please forgive me, and whenever you need to take with me, just come to my office and have time with me, no one will say anything, no matter if I have a meeting with anyone, just come to me, and I promise you that I will not work on Sunday and spend time only with you, and every day, I will try to finish my work before 7 and be at home only to spend time little angry bird and come on don't be sad"

She hugs him and continues "If you are not satisfied I can give you one more hickey on"

she kept her palm in his mouth
"how shameless you have become just within mins"

he kissed on her plam and she was already red due to hickey and feel seven haven happiness and said "It's nothing jaanam you have not seen your husband till now"

Hasnain brought her a plate full of rice, but she refused to eat, so he forced her to eat by herself, making sure she was full, and he also made her sleep on her bicep.

She called him "hasnain ji."

He opened her eyes to see her saying,

"Your hand will hurt if I sleep all night."

He kept his finger on her lips and kissed her forehead, saying,

"Shhh jaanam, nothing will hurt because I work out every day."