I have to admit something. Read the title. Yes, I kinda hate myself. Without my parents knowing. I even have a diary to write down all my self hate to control my depression. I just graduated elementary, actually. I'm 13 years old now, and I'm entering boarding school.
I really wanted this. Why? Well, it's so that I can restart my life. You all know that I LOVE Boboiboy, Demon Slayer, MHA, Haikyuu, and Oshi No Ko. My 8 school friends are also like me. They like Boboiboy, and 4 of them watch anime. But I won't be seeing them often anymore because we're going separate ways.
I have 8 friends, which looks like alot, but in fact, 2 is in high school next door, one is in 5th grade, and 3 more are in another class, which only leaves me with one other friend who are in the same class. We only had each other.
My class had 11 boys and 9 girls. If my BFF and I were a duo, that would leave 7 other girls as a group. 7 is the majority, right? That made me a little insecure. My mom used to say that my friend group was weird. I mean, 11 - 13 year old watching cartoon. Isn't it weird? I had my BFF with me 99 percent of the time, so I didn't really care.
That was until I graduated. As my graduation day got closer, my insecurity level SPIKED! What calmed me down was a teachers words about me.
He didn't teach me, but we were friends. His students asked him why am I his favourite student? Then he said that I'm not like other girls. While the other girls he teaches seem like as if they just CAN'T WAIT to enter high school, I was enjoying my simple life as a 12 year old, and I watch Boboiboy and anime!
( trivia about me: I simp for Boboiboy Gempa. I just really like the way Gempa is! That's my type of man.)
I actually felt normal for once. What I wanted to feel for so long actually came true. My mom thought that she raised me wrong, but she was wrong. I just matured a bit later than others, which was OK!
Moral: Please don't become like the old me. There will be someone who will value you for who you are.
