Loving your Hard Way

Chapter I

Amber's P.O.V

     I'm on my way to UPWARDS PUB located somewhere in Pasay.That bar has become my second home for the past two months.I drank all cocktails as I can,I get wasted,partied all night til I drop.There are also some instances that I need to spend the night laying on some of their couches because I'm too drunk to drive my way back home,and I'm about to do all of that again tonight.

     As I drove,I turned on the radio just to make some noise cause the silence was making the pain more palpable in my heart and in my whole system.

Pilit kong binubura sa isip ko
ang mga ala-ala
Ngunit kahit san ibaling ang tingin
ikaw parin ang lagi kong nakikita

Mga saglit na kayganda
nang tayo ay magkasama
Sa isip koy laging naroon
ang iyong mukha

    "Shiit!" I murmured after hearing the first part of the song.I felt like every lyric is like a sharp pieces of broken glass flying harshly towards my chest,digging deep down to my already bleeding heart to make it bleed some more until its out of life.

     I stopped and parked my car somewhere as the song continues.

Dahil di ko kaya ang limutin ka
hanggang ngayoy aamining
mahal parin kita

Di ko kaya ang limutin ka
sinisigaw nitong damdamin
mahal parin kita

     I let my tears flow,I tried to contain it but it just keeps flowing like a damaged faucet.

     I remember the days when we were both out of breathe from a lascivious but full of love kiss,the days when she looks right into my eyes and tells me that she loves me.

     I remember that day when Maegan promised me that in the right time,she'll gonna marry me and that she wouldn't marry another living being but only me.

Kahit na anong gawin
nalulungkot parin itong damdamin
Sanay magbalik kana sakin
at sana ay maulit pang muli

Mga saglit na kayganda
nang tayo ay magkasama
Sa isip koy laging naroon
ang iyong mukha

Dahil di ko kaya ang limutin ka
hanggang ngayoy aamining
mahal parin kita

Di ko kaya ang limutin ka
sinisigaw nitong damdamin
mahal parin kita