Its been three hours since I've ordered my dinner and they haven't showed up. Nor doctor has came to check up on me.. the last person who left my room was Chris ... he never came back inside to at least say that who is going to be my nurse for the day. Or that he came in to check my vitals..that's if he still is my nurse.
What happened? Why did he acted out like that?
I take a deep breath and put those thoughts in the back of my head.
There's a knock on the door and a lady comes in with a tray of food.
FINALLY!!!!
She places the tray on the table and apologizes for the long wait. Supposedly there was a misunderstanding at the kitchen. I accept her apology and started eating.
When am I going to get out of here?
Will I ever get out of here?
I don't even know why I am here.. I mean, I just have nightmares that seem so real ... and that these nightmares haunt me, he haunts me. I just don't know when I know I am dreaming or not. But that doesn't it mean I have to stay here in this mental hospital that my parents put me in does it?
Haha ..They just took the opportunity to leave you, Ash.
They don't want you.
As my subconscious put these thoughts in my mind, tears were escaping my eyes.But I know deep inside...they love me.
"They wanted me to get help...that's why I'm here," I say to her.
Haha...They just wanted to get rid of you..I can't believe you are so stupid,Ash. Ever since they left you here, they never visited you..not even a damn phone call! Not even a single letter. They abandoned you Ashley.
As I take in the words...finally accepting what my subconscious said.
They wanted me to leave me in the worst feelings in the world.....
Loneliness
