The night has come for us,
It's ever so tranquil state, mesmerizing the corners of our heads.
What a simple time to say hello to.
Shortly after coming home and having dinner with the three of us.
Me, Jinae and Jimin.
When muffin was feeling sleepy, we both decided that we should bring her to sleep together. We shared something together after a long time since we reconnected with each other.
Understanding that she's doing this for the sake of our daughter, but I couldn't understand what she was really thinking behind those eyes of hers, with good intention of course.
But, there was a part of me that wanted to believe that there was a flicker of hope?
Surely not, but something else entirely.
If I could come to terms with it then yes, for now. I'll just let the carpet roll out itself.
Sitting by the edge of Jinae's bed, my hand caressing her hair. Softly speaking, to ease her into sleeping after she asked us to read a bedtime story.
Holding the bear in her arms, looking at both me and Jimin. A soft quaint smile appeared before us.
Y/N - did you enjoy the story muffin?
Jinae - yes....
Jimin squatted beside me. Glancing at her, sharing a familiar smile.
Karina - Jinae-ah.
Jinae - yes unnie?
Karina - can you tell me what you want to be when you grow up?
Jinae - mmhmm......
Placing a hand on my shoulder, reassuring me for whatever answer she was going to give me.
Jinae - I want to be like mama.
Y/N - oh yeah?
Skeptical a bit from her answer but then again, it's best to let a child dream.
Jinae - I want to be cool, awesome like mama.
Y/N - then you'll have to work hard for that okay?
Jinae - I want to help papa.
Y/N - help me? How come?
She closed her eyes, moving around a bit while I tucked her in. Lifting my hand off her hair.
Jinae - papa is always making me happy, I want to make papa happy too.
Y/N - I'm happy, muffin.
Jinae - but.... You always look- *yawn* sad......
My expression softened, the corners of my lips almost frowning as we watched her drift off. Swallowing my breath while I thought to myself.
She's worried about me.
If I had to put it that way, or maybe I just never knew that she knew about what I've sacrificed for her.
The days I had to carry her on my back while I worked at whatever job I could find, some days I couldn't afford diapers for her as a baby. The arguments with my parents wanting to give her up, but I couldn't because my love for her,
Always outweigh whatever materialistic amount I could ever want.
At the end of the day, if I lose everything.
I'd be okay with it, but losing her?
My heart would never be whole ever again, even so. Maybe I would perish because of it.
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memory (NMIXX X Male Y/N)
RomanceY/N, a video editor for Divison 4 of JYPe is thrown into the chaos that is NMIXX. His friendship with Oh Haewon and being a busy family man has gotten him stressed. He's able to balance it all out while figuring out where he stands in the middle o...
