I looked down awkwardly at his shoes for awhile until I heard him chuckle at my actions. I quickly looked up at him with confusion "yes?" He smirked "so tell me about Luke, how do you feel about him?" I blushed madly and looked down. "Michael.." I muttered. He laughed "I'm just giving you a hard time, but you know that I know the truth right?" "I know, but don't tell him..I will" he nods and walks out. The truth is I know I can't do it..only If I were drunk..or high. I sighed and walked out joining everyone else, there was no room on the couch so I just stood up next to everyone. "Elouise sit on my lap love" I looked at him shocked "what?" I panicked on the inside, what if I hurt him? What if he thinks I'm too fat, of course he does everyone knows I'm fat.. I don't know why he even suggested that. Ashton stared at me concerned at my facial expression. "Elouise, let's talk" Ashton guided me to the room. "What's wrong love?" I started crying then, he pulled me into his arms. "I'm fat and everyone knows it..you know it Ashton, I can't sit on Luke's lap I don't want to hurt him, I'm too big to be lifted or to be sitting on anything. I'm not perfect like Delilah, Alana and Hannah. The only thing I'd be good for is laying on my back and being everyone's favorite slut! I'm worthless Ashton.." he looked shocked at my reaction "No, you aren't fat honey. You can sit on Luke's lap. I don't think you're fat, and you tell me what is perfect?" "Skinny, perfect hair, teeth, skin, butt, boobs, feet..everything" "Wrong, there is no such thing as perfect. I'm not even perfect. There is no definite answer to perfect. To Luke you are perfect to Calum and Michael you're perfect, to me you're perfect. Perfect isn't what is on the outside, it's what's on the inside. And you are golden on the inside. You are just dealing with some things, we all are." I felt a little bit better when he said that and I hugged him tighter. "Thank you" I whispered to him.
