Green Eyes (Niall Horan)

2. Scars

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Alrite my darlings !? Well heres your second chappie :) xx

Lailas POV

Yesterday was the best day of my life! I got to meet Niall Horan the hottest youtuber like ever and he is so nice and sweet, when he gave me his number i swear i nearly died, and i actually kissed his cheek god he is so fucking cute i wanna cuddle him all day.

Right now im on my way to meet Meila (pronounced like Me-la) at starbucks,We've always been close, me and Meila have known eachother since we were babys, our parents are close friends. I park in town and make my way to the nearest starbucks, i enter the coffee shop to be greeted with the sweet smell of coffee beans and basically heaven, i spot Meila in the corner with her laptop and hot chocolate and my fave drink, iced caramel machiatto, my stomach parcticly growls at the thought of it, i approach her and sit across from her.

"Hey love!" I smile, she looks up from her laptop and smiles back

"Hey LayLay" she chirps, i take a sip of my drink,

"You will never guess what happened to me today!?!?" she looked very confused and she closed her laptop,

"What in gods name are you talking about woman!?"

"Well yesterday i was at Alton Towers and you'll never guess who was there!?" she just shrugged, "Niall fucking Horan" She mouch was wide open, it was priceless! "You mean Niall fucking Horan as in the one you're in love with " she asked with a smirk,

"Who else?,well we spent the whole day together and it was like just the best thing ever! And then we hung out with Lou and Haz, big mistake, i mean they try to embarass me at very bloody turn ! Then he gave me his numer and i kissed him on the cheek!"

"SHUT UP!" "NO" "SHUT UP" "NO" She grinned and ran her small hand through her dirty blonde hair, "You have to call him y'know", "Oh shit you're right, but what do i say?" i ask her, "Gimme your phone" she orders, i hesitantly slide it across the table, she smile micheaviisly and takes it and unlocks it, the whole time i feared for my life, i had already put his number into my contacts so it was there for her, 2 minutes later she put down my phone still smiling all creepy.

"What the fuck did you do Meils ?" she just smiled, i grabbed my phone and look at my texts and she had sent

'Hey babe, i really like and yesterday was amazing, we should meet up sometime ;) xx ps i wanna ride yo dick'

I froze and slapped her arm very hard, "You bitch!" she still smiled i sent another text,

'OMG sorry Nialler that was my friend Meila !!!'

"Bitch you will pay for this!" i warned we both burst into laughter, finished our drinks and shopped for the reast of day. By the time i got home i still hadnt gotten a text back and for unknow reasons i was worried

Gurl you were worried cause you fancy him

Shut up conscience

Ok but you know im right!

Okay im am really weird.

2 hours later

I sobbed at i sat in the dim light of my bedroom, reading hate comments, my usual night. People say to just ignore them but thats pretty hard when they're all true,

'God your so stupid and fat why dont you do us all a favour and kill yourself!'

'nobody loves you you obese bitch!1!!'

'why dont you just die already!'

And so on, of course there was a few nice comments from people telling me im funny and they love me but of course they say that they're fans but why do people give me hate messages i just wanna know why and maybe i can fix myslelf ! I dont wanna be in this stupid body with my stupid hair and my horrible teeth and ugly freckles, i wanna be skinny and have a thigh gap and perfect straight teeth and a boyfriend and flawless skin, but no i cant cause im just worthless. I climed of my bed slowly and went to the bathroom, i looked under my sink and found the little brown box.

I hauled my self back to my bed and sat there, i opened the box and pulled out the razer. I smiled at the farmillierality. The sharp black glode across my wrist and it stung as the cold air his the open wound, but after a few seconds it numbed, taking deep breaks i reached for the blood stained rag which also lay neatly in the box. I presssed it against the cut to stop the flow of blood that came from my scarred wrist and lay back. If only they knew......

Nialls POV

The night that me and Laila hungout, i started to get depressed and felt like shit, i got pissed drunk, this isn't unusual for me. I do this when i feel deperessed or triggered or something, this is basically every night. I cant help it, its like, im just falling and falling deeper and deeper and to a black abis of saddness and deppression and i will never be pulled out, though when im with Laila i feel like i can get out of it!

That night i cut, deeper than i ever have, luckily the acohol numbed me. I woke up on my blood stained bed sheets, i ached all over. Groaning i pulled my self from bed and winced as my hands made even the slightest movement. I dragged myself over to the bathroom and cleaned up my cuts and wrapped them sloppily in bandages, this isnt the first time this has happened.

I looked at my clock and saw it was 3:43 in the afternoon, HOLY SHIT that pretty fucking late, my limbs felt like they were on fire and i had a fucking terrible hangover, jesus could the day get any worse!!! I'm just gonna nap it off.

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Ok, thats a little deppressing, but watever!!

Muah love you guys, Rose x