What defines a Villain?

I wonder if anyone will read this...probably not, xd. But it was just a little plot-bunny that wouldn't leave me alone, so I just had to! If by 0.00000!% anyone somehow got interested by this and will read this, well, thank you! :D

Disclaimer: Ok, I do not even own a ninja turtle comic book, why in anyone's right mind would they think I own the actual show!

I am Oroku Saki. In people's mind, I am known as the villain. The merciless Shredder, who holds petty grudges, gives no thought of kindness and love, and who apparently is not as affected by Tang Shen dying as Hamato Yoshi is. The one who doesn't care when something happens to Hamato Yoshi, who does not give any pity of any kind. Yes, that is the image I have gotten everyone to believe. That is what apparently defines me.

But, if they just looked a little deeper, saw past the bad guy image I have given myself, maybe they would think differently. Perhaps, for once, they will see things the way I do, who I really am, and the struggles I go through. They all think Hamato Yoshi is both physically, mentally, and emotionally strong for what happened to his family. They just see me was physically strong, that is all. Little do they know, I am as emotionally and mentally strong as the so called "good guys"

Hamato Yoshi and Tang Shen were a couple, and a wonderful one at that. But jealousy and longing affected me every day. Every time I saw them pass by holding hands with the most gleeful expression anyone has ever seen, I would fight back tears. Every night I stayed up, thinking about what I could have done differently to have Tang Shen have a place on her heart for me. But I knew it was too late, and that crushed me, made my outlook on life so differently. Tang Shen felt like she was the one, but then to see her being taken away hurt like hell. And she wasn't just taken away, she was taken by my former best friend, the one I had had such fun with and gone through so much with. Hamato Yoshi.

Back then, Hamato Yoshi and I were the best of friends, sometimes even mistaken as brothers. We would do everything together, day and night. We had such a special bond, only to be destroyed by a women. And that made it so hard on me. Maybe Yoshi was at too heartache at our destroyed brothership, but he had a lovely, kind women to support him. Me, not only had I lost my best friend, but the love of my life to him too, and only in a short period of time for that matter. There was no one there to support me, no one to show me they cared. And it was such a struggle, there were many times I just wanted to give up. But I kept moving with the speck of hope I had, only for it to be demolished in the future.

Time went by, and Hamato Yoshi and Tang Shen had a beautiful baby girl, Miwa. And that was the breaking point for me, that moment in time changed my life forever, made me who I am today. How could they, not only had to both broke my heart, they go ahead and create a family with each other!

Without giving the slightest thought about me, at all. They didn't care how the one who loved her or the best friend felt, they didn't care at all. I was blinded my rage, red was all that I could see. And soon, red would be what everyone else would see. Yoshi and I had gotten into battle, and somewhere along the way, a fire started. I'm not exactly sure how, revenge, anger, and sadness was consuming me, and I paid no attention to the outer world. The only thing I was focused on was getting revenge on the one who was the start of my misery, Hamato Yoshi. It was only when the immense heat started to swarm around me was when I realized that the red I saw wasn't just due to my rage, but to the flames surrounding me, like it was a cage. A cage that threatened to take away the life of me, my former, and deep down still, loved one, a child, and my one best friend. And no matter how mad I wanted to deny it, I didn't want anyone to die. I wanted them to feel the suffering I went through, true, but I did not wish for their lives to be taken away, at least not yet.

Suddenly, I heard the panic bellow of Hamato Yoshi, screaming for his beloved one, Tang Shen. The scream rippled around, begging for his loved one. And I just stood there in shock, processing what happened, listening to the screams, realizing to what must have occurred. No. That did not- I didn't- no! Tang Shen, please, please don't be gone. I pleaded in my mind, but I knew the damage was done. In result of my revenge and clueless actions, the fire had started and consumed the lovely young lady's life. It was my fault, I had killed her. I was the murder of the one I loved most. I didn't know what to do, I was confused and was drowning in guilt, still trying to believe what just happened. That is when I heard a baby's soft cry.