Winnerclock Oneshots

on break (srry)☹️

Hi guys, I'm just here to vent and explain why I haven't been contributing ANYTHING to this book. If you don't care or lowk don't wanna listen, then ok. Bye-bye

Reason why I'm going on another break/ brief explanation of the vent:

I just need to get my lifetogether and get personal problems and issues together and stop being lazy and depressed. I'll be back when i dont have these stupid issues anymore. ❤️‍🩹

Vent;

I feel like just mad and sad all at the same time, I didn't expect my life to go so downhill in the span of 2 seconds, but here I am. I haven't worked on this book because I just feel lazy and depressed all the time and I think imay be anorexic. I also have to care for my health because for one of my old chapters I mentioned I was not doing well with keeping up with everything. And another thing to add on, from one of my past chapter where I talked about how I didn't like when my sister kept sleeping in my room, she is still doing it she actually stopped for a while but she's doing it again and right now I'm laying on the floor of a room that isn't mine because my sister just really wants to sleep in MY room. Countless times my mom said she'll talk to my sister but she makes up excuses saying " oh I'll tell her tomorrow I promise" or stupid stuff like that and she's mad at me rn because I snapped at her today. I am genuinely just sad and stressed and I'm pretty sure I'm gonna start being in my bedroom all day and locking the door and when it is time to sleep I'll sleep downstairs since my mom can't control her ELDEST daughter who just really REALLY needs to sleep in my room. And the problem is that I don't care when she sleeps in my room at some points because the main reason she goes there is because my brother can't sleep by himself which to me is kind of weird he's turning double digits this year. But like I was saying he needs someone to sleep with him so I got over the fact my sister sleeps on his bed with him but what bothers me the most is that recently I said Alright, I'll sleep with my brother today just so my sister doesn't sleep in the room BUT MY MOM JUST DOESN'T GET IT SHE LITERALLY GOES TO MY SISTER AND ASKS IF SHE WANTS TO SLEEP THERE WHEN I JUST SAID ILL DO IT AND SHE WONDERS JUST WHY AM I SO MAD. And you might be saying, "oh but she's just sleeping in the room she isn't even doing anything to you." Well she trashes my room, puts her pit stained smelly clothes in my room, she insults both me and my side of the room in my room, she leaves food crumbs everywhere, throws my clothes on the floor, and just trashes everything in general and it just makes me so goddamn angry every time. I cant even believe my own mom sides with her. Once I told my dad about this and he got mad at her and my mom texted me saying why i would do that. Tbh I didn't feel sympathy at ALL since I'm pretty sure this has been happening since last year I believe. So tomorrow, I'm telling my dad again about all of this and see if my mom even tries to even try me today. I'm just so done with everything like atp I'm wishing that I could just die which I haven't had these thoughts in like years I'm just so angry. I'm just gonna treat my mom with the silent treatment tomorrow and atp I don't even care if she doesn't give me food to eat tomorrow I think I need to lose a bit of pounds anyway. My own mom insults me and I always joke with her making jokes that sound rude but aren't. But when I say she same sentence I used for that joke when I'm mad at her she takes it personally and gets mad at me saying "I can't believe your mad st me got bless you." Like pls stfu bro she then proceeds to call me a demon or devil and I just wanna hit her or just something in general.
I'm about to just go back into crying atp i don't know why my life just has to be like this with a mom I protect with my heart and soul and defend her at any cost toward my spoiled brother just for her to be like this toward me I'm so done.
Also i feel pressured to write these chapters because I also need to work on my yt channel too. I haven't posted in MONTHS I may quit everything altogether.

I think im actually done ranting today I let out all of my rage and I lowkey feel happier again so yknow, I'll just be better once I get out of this stupid shithole

( this is cringe, but I've lowkey been wanting to curse the entire time, but i don't curse on my family members, so yeah)