today i was thinking the thoughts they were bursting thrue my head
an aray of thoughts and emotion running thrue my mind
the color of my thought sometimes its like the world will never seace its fowl stench of my luck
the thought of my existance was for amusement for they all laugh they all smile those smiles
they make it look easy but its not they look at me with sutch pitty
like i am of no importance and that is what my importance is nothing
i live in such pain and sarrow
the colors i paint just a merror reflection for nothing but my shadow is the equivelents of this life i lead
i whant to speak topeople my words
That I am of importance yet I can not
The voice I speak will not let these words come out
I whant to tell you all
But my voice will not let me it is useless
It is like my hands and feet are bound by anothers will and my mouth is sewn shut for there amusement
For now I am nothing but a puppet now I do as they will for they found my strings and now they control my every emotion with utter glee they
Let me feel this pain this sarrow and they do not let me express it with words silence they say as for they are the queen and I am but a sevent by there every need
I am there but when myself do I get to feel the true happieness this emotion
I have not had this thing they so graissfully indulage in
Why, why, why must they do this I do not whant to be this monstrosity any more
I can no longer bare it
I can not hold my tears for mutch longer
I want to tell what I feel but I cannot
I am tierd of this caos
I would rather choose my dimise for that will be more blissful then this torment
I can not live with it mutch longer so
I ask to please end this
I plead them to end this game they have started why do they do this is it because they are never going to be entertained by none other
Because I want to go I whant to be free form this dongone of missory
So please end this now
I do not want to stay so please let me free I want to see the sunlight of true happieness for myself for I have never touched it
Untill I do I will live my life in this sell of missory
