I wanna feel numb...
I wanna feel numb, not because I feel so sad or so lonely but because this aching is now too deep that I can't even comprehend.
I wanna feel numb, not because I feel like everything is too much but because these feelings are so messy.
I wanna feel numb, not because I don't want to feel this pain but because I don't want to harm myself.
I wanna feel numb...
Because maybe in that way, I don't have to think and feel like this anymore.
I wanna feel numb...
Because maybe in that way, these scenarios in my head will stop.
I wanna feel numb...
Because maybe...
Just maybe,
In that way, I might survive.
