what they wouldn't do | DAREDEVIL

forty nine

(((sorry for the delay u guys!!!! but HOLY FUCK!!!!!!! im posing exact copy paste from ff.net & i'll go back to edit italics later i just wanna post this now for u guys<3333)))

Notes:

Hi everyone! Happy Born Again Day! I thought you might want something to keep you busy until the new episodes drop tonight.

It's been a very long time. Well over a year. I know this story gets reposted in a few spots, so please include these notes if you do, because they're about the end of the story and a few other things.

First, the reason I've been gone: a shockingly bad year. My father died. It was sudden and unexpected, and I was grieving so much that I had no space for anything else. Normally writing is an escape for me, a reprieve from stress. But it just didn't work for grief. I couldn't write humor or tension or romance because there was no room inside me for anything other than sadness and anger and numbness.

I just wanted to acknowledge how many people reached out to me via comments, reviews, private messages, or emails. I read them all. I responded to almost none of them. I was just very overwhelmed. If it helps, I also didn't reply to any texts from friends and family for a long time until they started physically showing up at my apartment, so it wasn't just you guys. But I do appreciate everyone who reached out: some people reached out about the story, others who saw the note on my profile about my dad, and a few who wanted to check in after the hurricane in Asheville. I'm so grateful for all of you and please know that even if I didn't reply, it made my day a little better each time.

And things are getting better. Maybe slower than I'd like, but it's happening. I got back to writing, although these final few chapters are a little different than I'd originally imagined. There were some things that were just too difficult for me to tackle (basically any scene involving Sarah's father, for example) so I reworked some stuff. I know I'd also promised an explicit smut scene at some point, as kind of a writing challenge to get myself out of my usual comfort zone. But at this point just completing the story has been challenge enough (still a good one, but a bit more emotionally draining now) and I just haven't felt up to trying something I normally don't write, so any spicy scenes will be pretty PG-13. Sorry! Maybe an explicit one-shot is still in the future.

We're almost to the end. This chapter took a long time because it's very action heavy and Matt and Sarah are separated for a lot of it, which is always harder to write. The next (and last) chapter has been easier to write, so in a short while (hopefully the next two weeks) I'll post the final two: Chapter 50 is the finale, and then a separate epilogue chapter. And that will be the end! Ten years after the original show started, and just as Born Again brings it all back to our screens.

Lastly: please keep in mind as always that I have limited understanding of the New York police and legal system, so...if we play fast and loose with some of that, feel free to assume that any discrepancies are just how things operate in the MCU version of things.

Enjoy!

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SATURDAY EVENING, as Matt stood in the flower shop around the corner from his office, it occurred to him that he didn't know what kind of flowers Sarah liked.

He didn't even know if she would accept them from him at all. He knew he'd taken too long to come around, that there was every chance she might have no interest in fixing things now. But she'd sounded open to it on the phone, and he had to try. The flowers might not help, but they couldn't hurt.

He heard footsteps as the woman who owned the flower shop approached him.

"Anything in particular you're searching for?" she asked.