This is Home :: Harry Styles Fanfic

Chapter 6

{Hey everyone, I just wanted to thank you for the support that the book has been getting so early on. I have triple the amount of chapters in my last book and when the math is done, I didn't do nearly as well. I really hope you guys continue to enjoy. ♥}

I sigh in defeat and begin to head back to the deck to retrieve my bag, but before I make it half way down the hall way, Harry is turning the corner, over his shoulder is my green bag that reads "PINK" in bold letters. I frown and cross my arms as I wait for him to get closer and begin complaining about how I ran off, but instead he just continues walking past me. 

"Hey, wait, you have my bag!" I shout down the hall and am alerted when a woman pops from her door to shush me. I smile in apology and make my way towards Harry who is now entering his room and holding the door open for me. I roll my eyes and stand in front of him, clearly refusing to enter.

"Are you coming in?" He questions. I shake my head no. What is wrong with him? What in the hell makes him think I want to come into his room? 

"No, I just want my bag, Harry." I can feel my heart racing from anger and excitement. Harry rolls his eyes and nods his head towards the room, his curls bounce slightly as seriousness falls over his face.

"I don't wa-" I am cut off by Harry's pleas. 

"Ella, please." I finally give in, not exactly sure as to why Harry wants me in his room, but I assume its for the worst. I had only kissed one boy before Harry, and that was Niall. We were just little kids back then and I really shouldn't even count it as my first kiss, even though Niall does.

I sat on the edge of the bed, and Harry plopped down next to me. He entwined his fingers together in his lap and continued to look down. He seemed to be deep in thought and I considered grabbing my bag off the chair in the opposite corner of the room and making a run for it, but eventually decided against it because I know Harry would eventually catch me, so I just decide on waiting patiently for him to speak.

"You kissed me." I sigh and stand up, not wanting to be blamed for our awkward encounter. He begged me to kiss him, and although my lips were a part of the four connecting and I did agree with it, I was just caught at a bad time. I regret it. Don't I?

"Wait. Don't go, Ella." Harry grabs my arm and I roll my eyes before sitting next to him once again. He offers me a small smile before looking down at his hands. "We can go about this in two different ways. We can just avoid each other from now on, for the rest of the trip, or we can be really good friends. " For some reason a shattering emptiness is felt in my chest. I suppose because he didn't say what I thought he would.

"Oh." I look away, my face blushing slightly. He confuses me. What is this to him? What am I? Just some poor girl for his twisted, fucked up games?

My thoughts are interpted by a knock on the door, Harry rests his hand on my thigh and sighs. "Just think about it, okay, El?" Oh ill think about it, for sure, and probably lose a few days sleep. I nod my head yes as Harry and I stand. The person knocks again and Harry calls for them to wait. I grab my bag off of the chair and head towards the exit where Harry opens the door for me. 

My entrance into the hall way is greeted by a very angry looking Niall, who's fists are balled up a his sides and tears threaten to escape his eyes. Im lost for words as Harry steps into the hallway with a smirk on his face.

"Calm down, man." Harry holds back laughter. Why the hell is this funny? I can hardly speak. I cant find my words so I do the only thing I can think of and wrap my arms around Niall's torso. I feel him sigh and wrap his arms around me. 

"What the hell is she doing in your fucking room?" Niall shouts, and I jump slightly as he releases me. My heart is racing as I look back and forth between the two of them. Harry's smirk falls as I grab Niall's hand and look back at him. 

"Oh, nothing. Your little girlfriend here just about sucked my face off is all." I feel the color drain from my face as Niall looks down at me. What do I do? I should just let Niall beat the hell out of Harry and his smug self, but decide I don't want to make any more commotion than I have. 

"Ill explain, Niall please don't." I beg in the sweetest voice I can. I know Niall won't hurt Harry in front of me, but he'll do it behind my back if he has the chance, which worries me deeply. I glance back at Harry who almost looks hurt. Maybe because I took Niall's side, but why wouldn't I? Niall and I have known each other for years, and he actually treats me well, and loves me. Where Harry just pushes me around.

Before I know it Harry is back in his room and Niall is dragging me down the hall by my hand that is clasped tightly to his. Almost as if im keeping him from killing Harry. Which verbally, that's what I did, physically, I did not.

"Explain, Ella." Niall stops in front of the door, his arms crossed and I drop my head in shame, I'm not sure why I feel so absolutely guilty at the moment. I just do. I hurt Niall which was never my intention. Besides, it isn't like I kissed Louis.

"I...It was just in the moment is all. It didn't mean any thing." A tear escapes my eye as I remind myself not to look at Nialls face which is probably filled with anger and hurt. I hear him bang his fist against the wall before he grabs me and pushes me against the door. I feel his stomach press to mind and his fingers tug gently at my hair before the slide down to my hips. 

"I could make you so happy, Ella." Niall bring his face closer to mine before leaning his forehead into mine. My heart skips beats at my nervousness. I don't know what I want. I can't say I don't care about Niall because I do, but I don't think I love him the way that he wants me to, and I dont think I ever can. Im conflicted on my next action and before I can make a decision, Niall's lips crash onto mine. I feel nothing. Not a thing besides an ache in my chest, why it's there, I'm clueless. I push Niall away and my eyes fall to the ground as his hands fall to his sides in defeat. 

"Why? Why can't you love me, El?" I feel the hurt in his voice stab me like a thousand knives.

"I do, but I can't love you in the way you want." I frown as my eyes meet his. I hate doing this to him. I sometimes wonder if itd be easier just to give in and be his girlfriend like he wants, but I know that could only cause more hurt than good. While Niall would be the best boyfriend, and so practical for me, I can't be with someone I don't want to just for their own sake and convenience.

Niall pushes the door to the bedroom open and I notice Zayn and Louis standing at the door, knowing they had just heard every word Niall and I spoke. Great. The lack of privacy has already started. I roll my eyes and enter the restroom to change, slamming the door behind me.

I sigh and decide it's time to call my parents. I blocked their number from my cell before I left which I know sounds immature, but if I didnt they would be blowing it up, trying to get ahold of me. I pull it from the pocket of my bag and plant myself on the floor as it turns on.  I dial my mothers number and wait for all hell to break lose.

"Ella! What the fuck were you thinking you little bitch?" I sigh as I recognize my fathers drunken voice through the phone. Its now 5 a.m. and I figured if I called early enough they would either be asleep or just waking up, I had hopes they wouldn't be drunk.

"Is that Ella?" I hear my mother call out. She sounds somewhat sober, but not intirely.

"That's what I said, moron." I hear my dad hiss back.

"You come home right now, or were not sending you to nursing school like you wanted." My mother yells , but its apparent shes right next to my father.

"Yeah, I won't be calling again. You wanted me to go to nursing school and i'm done. Grow up and fix your damn drinking problem. Its five in the morning and you two are drunk of your asses. I won't be coming home. Thanks for nothing." I slam my phone on the cabinet after clicking the red button on the screen.

That felt amazing.

-SORRY THE UPDATE TOOK FOREVER- I will probably do a double update today just depending on how I feel and how everyone responds to this chapter. Thank you so much for reading and please vote and comment! (: Let me know what you think of Harry and Ella's relationship and what you think of Niall and Ella as a possible couple. What do you ship? Hella or Nella?