Shy Girl Problems (In Progress)

A Little Narration

As time passed and days went on, I became extremely close with Caleb. In fact, for a few months both of us got online around the same exact time every day.

It was surprising how open and comfortable we became with each other. We had tons of inside jokes, and actually became known at the Pool. We were there enough for other users to see us there all the time.

I recently found out that he had a girlfriend on the game. Her name was Lily. I finally got to meet her and to be honest, she wasn't what I expected at all.

She was very sweet, but she was also kind of boring. Extremely clingy, and if you asked me, she seemed like she was 10 years old. They were still cute together and I tried to be supportive.

Even though she practically ignored me all the time.

After awhile he and Lily broke up. I can't lie that I was kind of happy about it... But not in the way that you think ok?

She just did not seem right for him at all.

With every time we hung out together, the more we got closer. At one point he asked me for my Facebook, but I didn't feel ready to show him the real me.

I am quite insecure with the way I look... and I'm not that popular. So what if he sees my posts and how little likes they get?

What if he stalks my pictures and friends and sees how pathetic I am?

What if he thinks I'm ugly and doesn't pay as much attention to me?

So many thoughts race through my head, but in the end I declined for now. He seemed a little upset but seemed to have brushed it off.

We had our moments that wavered where sometimes we would be crying from how much we were laughing, and other moments were filled with long pauses of awkward silence.

Most of the time I couldn't tell whether he actually wanted to talk to me or not, or if he was just hanging out with me to past time til something better happened.

Last week Aiden got me a job at the restaurant where he worked. Since then I've been pretty busy, and while juggling school at the same time, I haven't had a chance to get online in a while.

Every time that I did get online, Caleb wasn't. I'd still see Brian every now and then, but he was often with other people. I usually just got in the way.

Caleb and I just kept missing each other.

I'd check his profile and see that he logged on two days before me. Or was on earlier but logged out for the day.

Sometimes I saw that he visited my profile, probably checking whether I was online or not. Our timing was completely awful, and its been a month since we've talked to each other.

Until last night.

He was online. He was finally online.

And I really, really wanted to join the chat room but I was doubting myself.

What if he was ignoring me?

What if he purposely was getting off when I came online because I annoyed him so much? I don't freaking know.

Most of the time, I go to him. Or we log on at the same place by "coincidence." Heh. But he never actually came to me. So I waited. I waited about an hour until his avatar loaded in my chat room.

Awesome124: o:

Latte_eyes61712: Omg

His avatar moved to where mine was standing.