Jealousy

3: Riding the subway alone and realizing you like your best friend

Riley's POV:

Maya and Lucas have been dating for a whole week now. For some reason Maya seemed completely crazy for him. It didn't really make any sense to me, she used to hate him! Lucas always went on and on about how great of a kisser and a girlfriend Maya was. I was so sick of them being together. No stop, I should be happy for them. But I wasn't! I felt so annoyed anytime they talked about their relationship, and it's only been a week. Was I jealous? No, I couldn't be. I don't even like Lucas anymore. For all I cared, he could get ran over by a bus. No wait he's one of my best friends I take that back. But you get the point.

After school I couldn't find Maya. We always walked home together after school, and she was nowhere in sight. I tried checking the classrooms. Maybe she got detention. I checked all her classes, but still no Maya. As I made my way down to the principals office I heard a moan coming from the janitors closet. Oh god. I almost barfed. I actually hoped it wasn't them.

I slowly opened the door, finding Maya on top of Lucas, making out with him. Their eyes were closed and couldn't see me, so they kept going. I was angry and disgusted. "Ehem." I tried making them realize that I was watching. My arms were folded and I had an angry frown. Maya quickly got off Lucas.

"Sorry Riles. You can walk home without me today. Lucas and I are going to be here for a while." She forced a smile. I felt my heart shatter. But Maya always walked home with me!

"Oh...ok." I bit my lip, trying not to cry. I ran away before she could notice my obvious sadness. I've never been on the subway alone. What was I going to do? I had no other way home. I climbed on the subway train. Everyone seemed to be staring at me. The smelly older guys next to me were probably staring at my breasts. I felt so scared. What if they tried talking to me? Do I call the police or my parents? My stop wasn't very far. I let out a sigh of relief. The guy to my left placed his hand on my thigh. What a great day to wear a knee length dress! "Please take your hand off my t-thigh." I wanted to punch myself for stuttering.

"What are you gonna do if I don't?" His voice slurred and he wore a creepy smirk. His hand only went higher up my thigh. I was trembling at this point. Maya could've protected me if I was here. But Maya's not here, she ditched me for a cowboy. I felt his hand squeeze me and a boiling hot tear roll down my cheek.

"D-don't fucking t-touch me!" I yelled, letting everyone on the subway know that he was harassing me. I slapped his hand away. My face was wet and flaming red. I think someone called the police, but I quickly ran off the subway when my stop came. Thanks a lot Maya! I went up to my apartment and locked the door behind me. What? He could've followed me.

My parents noticed that I was obviously crying and that I was alone. Their faces were filled with concern. "Honey, are you ok? Where's Maya? Did something happen to you guys?" My mom rambled.

"No, Maya is completely fine making out with her stupid boyfriend in the janitors closet, completely ditching me and leaving me to ride the subway alone! Meanwhile some older guy was harassing me and no one was even there to help!" I sobbed. I was so angry. Fuck Maya and her stupid ass boyfriend!

"What'd he do!? Did you call the police?!" They both hugged me and checked my skin for any marks.

"He touched my thigh. I told him to take his hand off me but he wouldn't listen and only went higher and grabbed me. I yelled and I think someone heard and called the police."

"Ok good, but next time call the police yourself."

"I was scared that he might grab my phone from me though..."

"Makes sense...I'm sorry this happened to you sweetie." My mom kissed my cheek and squeezed me tightly.

"It's ok, it could've been worse." I wiped my tears.

"Why did Maya not go with you? I thought you two always walked together."

"She's making out with her stupid boyfriend! I walked in on them and she told me to just ride the subway alone because they were going to stay."

"I'm going to have to have a talk with her." My mom sighed. "Go wash up and change into your pajamas." I nodded and ran up to my room, only to collapse on my bed and cry even more.

I can't believe Maya did that to me! I can't believe she ditched me for Lucas. Does she like Lucas better than me now? Was she replacing me? She was! I trembled and shook. Why did she have to go out with him? She's spending more time with him than she is with me! Maybe I'm just being selfish and jealous. But I'm not jealous! I don't even like Lucas anymore! But I felt jealous.

I had to find a way to break them up. I just had to.
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I refused to talk to Maya the next morning. The subway ride to school was pretty awkward. She tried lighting a conversation with me, but I ignored her. We got off the subway and I tried running away before Maya could try talking to me again. But it was too late, she already grabbed me before I could go anywhere. She pulled me to the corner with a scowl.

"Why won't you talk to me?" She held my arms tightly so I couldn't escape. "You haven't talked to me all morning, and you have that stupid frown you make when you're mad at someone."

"I think Lucas' temper might've rubbed off on you." I spat. "I'm surprised you even decided to show up this morning! I thought you might be making out with Lucas in the janitors closet again."

"LUCAS!? IS THAT WHAT THIS IS ALL ABOUT?" She yelled. Her ocean blue eyes widened and she let go of me, instead making fists with her hands. I was almost sure she was going to punch me. "YOU TOLD ME YOU WERE OVER HIM!"

"I AM! I just don't like you making out with him in the janitors closet instead of walking home with me. It's like you don't even care about my safety anymore!"

"Well if you're sooooo concerned over your safety, why don't you just walk home with Farkle or Zay!?" She angrily stomped out of the station and all the way to school.
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I sat next to Maya and Zay during lunch. Zay sat next to Farkle and Maya sat next to Lucas. I didn't bother trying to talk to Maya again, it'd probably explode into another argument. I slowly ate my food, watching Maya and Lucas flirt with each other. I was sick to my stomach. Maya hugged and kissed Lucas repeatedly. Was she trying to shove it in my face? Zay watched them and looked at me with a smirk. "What?" I asked him.

"Oh nothing. Nothing at all." He said with obvious sarcasm. Maya whispered something in Lucas' ear and they both got up and left the cafeteria. I folded my arms and tried hiding the fact that I was upset. "You're jealous!" Zay whispered.

"I am not! I don't like Lucas in that way."

"Oh I didn't mean Lucas, I meant Maya. You like Maya, don't you?" He smiled from ear to ear.

"I like...Maya?" The realization hit me. I was jealous, and I liked Maya, my best friend.