Dangerous Love (One Direction)

Chapter 23

It's been seventeen days since Harry has found out about Scott. Security has doubled, my number has been changed, and Harry won't let me out of his sight.

 I understand that my life is at stake, but this isn't working for me. Everyone's goal is to keep me out of sight and under the radar, but they suck miserably at it. Anyone who thinks they can hide me is stupid. You know what, everything is stupid.

"Hey love!" Harry said cheerfully while walking to the bed I was previously sleeping on.

Come to think of it, i've been sleeping a lot more recently. It was really weird, I use to only sleep 4 or 5 hours and be wide awake the next day. Now, with 16 hours I can hardly function.

"Hey." I said with a forced smile on my face. He kissed me quickly. I guess he had things to do for the concert tonight.

 "Are you ready to get on with the American leg of the tour?" Harry asked.

Time has passed so slow, yet I completely forgot we would eventually heading back to the United States.

 I guess I have been dreading it more than I thought.

"Since you haven't responded, i'm guessing that's a no?" Harry said while pulling me into his lap.

"I don't know how I feel." I told him honestly. 

I really did know how I felt though, but how are you supposed to tell the one you love that you're completely miserable? How am I supposed to explain to him that I rather Scott find me than being on solitary confinement?! You can't.

"Well, you have to be excited to go back to where you're from. Familiar territory." He said, trying to get something out of me.

All too familiar territory if you ask me.

"You're right. It'll be great!" I told him with a fake smile, hoping it would reach my eyes. He couldn't know that I wasn't happy anymore.

"Good. Now get ready, we're all going out to eat in a bit." He told me. Before walking out we shared a quick kiss.

Once, he was out of sight, I dragged myself from the bed and headed towards the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and wasn't happy with the results.

I'm slowly breaking down. I don't even look like myself anymore. My hair is weakening, my eyes nor skin shine like they used to. My cheeks have lost the Rosy color they once had.

I've never lived a healthy life, but the one I am living now is too hard to handle. Sure, i'm used to running away and lying. But when you take all freedom and thinking space away from someone who is so accustom to it, they'll go crazy. And that is what's happening.

I shook my head, my thoughts were useless. All they ever did these days was eat me alive.

After a few deep breaths, I stepped into the shower. The lighting was brighter than usual, causing me to blink excessively for a moment.

I slowly peeled my clothes from my skin before stepping into the luke warm water. As my entire body got in, I noticed a ton of bruises.

The only thing they could even be from would be aggressive security and fans. Or maybe it was something unknown..

It didn't matter. I washed quickly and then stepped out. After blow drying my hair and applying make up, I was ready.

Quietly, I walked out to the area of the bus that had a couch, other chairs, and a television. Of course, all the boys were there.

"Hey sleeping beauty!" Niall teased, referring to how much I have been sleeping. I laughed slightly at his remark.

The rest of the boys greeted me too, but not Harry. Thanks boyfriend....

What am I saying? I'm the shittiest girlfriend imaginable. I have no room to talk what so ever.

Harry looked up from his phone, which he was previously typing away on. "Alright, let's get some food." 

"Thank God, I was thinking I was going to end up starving to death!" Niall exaggerated.

"Yeah, sure mate." Liam said rolling his eyes. I couldn't help but smile at the slight banter.

Maybe, this mood I was in could be changed. Maybe, I just needed to let myself live within the confinement...

We walked to the restaurant, which was only feet from our bus. Yeah, way to be casual guys.

Once we sat down and ordered drinks, a blond girl around my age approached us. Assuming it was a fan, I sent her a smile only to be sent a glare in return.

"Madison!" Harry said happily before getting out of the booth and hugging her a bit too long from my liking.

After they exchanged some words, they sat down. Except, I wasn't sitting next to Harry anymore. I was next to Madison.

I wasn't jealous of Madison and Harry. I wasn't even mad that she was here. But I was hurt that my boyfriend was treating me as if I didn't exist now that she was here. I mean, he didn't even introduce us...

The boys sent my sympathetic looks. I guess you could read my facial expressions..

"Ugh, it's so cramped here!" Madison said, trying to push me so she had space.

"I agree." Harry said to her.

"I'll pull up a chair." I sighed, about to get out of my seat.

"I think Madison should pull up a chair." Lou said. His sass was so real, I wanted to laugh. Too bad that would be really inappropriate.

"How about you shut up?" Harry snapped at him. Madison just smirked.

My mouth fell open, as well as everyone elses. I couldn't believe Harry just did that to his best friend.

"You know what, I'm not hungry anymore. Amber, you can sit here. I'll be on the bus." Louis said with his jaw clenched. He stood up and so did I.

I looked Harry in the eyes and shook my head before going after Louis.

Once we were far enough from the table, I called his name. He turned around, his expressions were mixed. Hurt, anger.

"Why did you follow me?" Louis said as he continued walking. I jogged a bit so I was beside him.

"Because I didn't want your seat. You stood up for me, so now i'm standing up for you." I told him as we made it to the bus.

"You didn't have to, I can take care of myself." He told me. I rolled my eyes.

"Look, do you really think I am going to stay around 3 guys who won't say anything to anyone besides themselves, some bimbo, and an asshole who ignores his girl friend and does that to his best friend?" I snapped.

Louis' facial expression softened. I guess I actually let him know what was bothering me...

"He doesn't mean any harm, you know that right?" He told me while looking into my eyes.

I looked down at my feet. I do know that, but at the same time I deserve to be ignored by him. These past two and a half weeks couldn't have been fun from him. I was being a terrible girl friend and I knew it.

"And don't blame yourself for his choices. He knows that you're having a hard time adjusting. But sometimes he forgets those things and acts in a bad way." Louis explained to me.

"How does that explain what he did to you?" I countered.

"I did something he disagreed with. It happens more than you think." He chuckled awkwardly.

I gave him a small smile. "Thanks Lou." I told him before giving him a tight hug.

After Louis and I went our separate ways on the bus, I couldn't help but remember things I have been told.

Little negative slip ups about Harry.

Niall's warning.

One thing was sure though, I needed to cheer the fuck up and I needed to talk to Niall.