Every thing was good my dad oit of the army my mom retierd of being an army brat life was good we ended up living in lueseanna a long time win i was six that is when thing went wrong my dad had made a promise to me one morning amd he seid the he would be back later i waited at that door for so long every day i would wait for him to come bake every day i asked my mom when was daddy coming home bu she seid nothing and was sad . When i got to 2 grade kids bullied me for how i looked how i talked and how i was incomplete i never told my mom this and i would come home every day sad and arngy that i was being picked on bit i never showed it was like i had no emtions i kept it in then in 3-5 grade bulling got worse amd they would hit me and i still showed no emotion even though i felt dead in side they would call me whore and freak and emo and bitchthey would tell me that i ahould just die and whwn i got to school one day in 4th grade i went to locker many mean word were written on it i still showed no emostion then i got held back in 4th grade cause i got sick with strep for 46 days in a row becuase my sis teacher was a caryer of it and when that happed bulling got so bad that i would ditch classes and hide in the bathroom or tell my mom i was sick and try not to got to school in 5th grade i was 14 and i was still bullied i got so good at lyig and hideing my emotions that i drove every one away i also came apone a few talent i had like singing and art i liked those were my escape but the bulling kept comeimg and on my 15th birthday i tried to kill myself cuase when i told my best freind that i was a lesbian they told me to go ito hell when i got home that day i ran to the bathroom and pulled out scissors ad cut my wrist 5 times i was hurt some much in my life that i didnt realy feel the pain the blood ran down my arm and when i heard my mom come home i freaked and washed the blood way wraped my arm and put my jaket on then i find out my dad is in kentuky and i have to spend summers with him but after a few year now mind u this is when i was ten sorry for cunffution well aftwr that i was 15 and he never seid he moved to okc were i lived in tulsa now and he is engaged and has a famliy well step famliy but he pays more attention to them tan any thing eles and a few mouth later on the exact day he get the divore finnallised he got married after that i disided to tell him i am gay and when i did we were at his work he jist laughed in my face and seid yay right after that i hid in the bathroom a cryed untell some one found me of course i put my shell up and left the bathroom every time my dad looks at me i see disapointment and anger wheny mom foumd out i cut we went to a theripist but it did not help and i still cut but she does not know i still do they put me on deppretioneds but we had to stop gettingthem. Cuase they cost o much and thats wheny emotion went out of wake i would yell and cry over the littlest things now i am 16 and i still cut and i am bary dipressed but i love art and music i have no freinds and i have 8 dogs and 1 bird o am now home schooled and i rarly ever leavey house i u saw me u would think i am dead with how pale i am i u look in my eyes all u will see is sadness and pain peoples say my life is just begining but what is the point if all u feel i sadness ad pain sometimes i wounder i havent killed myself yet but its hard to kill ur self when u dont know what will happen next
To be cuntenued when i get older and have more to wright also all of this is true just ask my sisters
