Mad

Whats wrong with you?

Day three in this hell hole and already I can't take it. Ava keeps walking into my room and asking for sugar and I have to keep telling her that I ran out because when I told her that this is a mental institution she would scream and say that I was lying. Victoria is no better, even thought she's friendly she is kind of annoying and controlling. The only cool person I met while I was in here was Harper.

Harper is super quiet and doesn't . bother me at all. Her hair is black and always nappy at the top like she never combs it. I mean i get that we all are going insane but damn girl let me buy you some shampoo please. Other than that she's pretty cool. She started coming to my room unannounced and she would always sit in the same chair and say nothing which is creepy but whatever.

*knock knock*

I bet its Harper.
The door creeps open and I can see her face.
I knew it.

"Hi" I said.
She waved her hand and dismissed what I just said and sat in my chair...scratch that. HER chair. Moments later Ava came in.
"Scarlett can I borrow some sugar?"
I sigh.
"Ava! I ran out of sugar"
"Oh okay"
She saw Harper and sat next to her.
"Have we met?" She asks.
Harper barley tilted her head up and then shook it.
"Well. Do you have any sugar?"
Harper shook her head again. Ava got upset with the lack of words coming out of harpers mouth and so she waved her hand in front of her face.
"Hello? Earth to grudge cake!!"
Although Harper kept her head down I could tell she was getting upset and she could snap any second.
"Ava! Don't do that!" I said.
She stopped and looked up at me confused.
"Scarlett! When did you ge-"
She was cut off by Victoria barging in the room.

Does this girl ever knock before coming in my room?

"Ooh! What's going on in here?"
She flopped down on the foot of my bed right on top of my foot.
"Ow! God Victoria!"
"Oh! Scarlett I'm so sorry"
Even thought this girl weighs like 40 pounds her bones hurt and her pelvis hit the sensitive part on my ankle. She glances over at Harper who is failing to make any eye contact with any one. Then she leans over to me and whispers.
"What's wrong with her?"
"Um first of all her name is Harper and second she won't tell me what's wrong with her"

Ava tapped her on Harper's shoulder.
"So what's wrong with you?"
There was no response so she kept tapping.
Still no response.
She was still tapping but she stopped and completely forgot what she wanted to ask.
We all looked at her waiting for her to say something but she said nothing.

"Well I'll say what's wrong with me if you don't feel comfortable yet"
I really did not want to hear this right now but then she straightened her back and cleared her throat and I knew that there was no stopping her.

"I have anorexia"

Not really a surprise but okay.

She continued.
"Yeah it all started a year ago when my parents divorced. It was completely out of the blue and I didn't know what to do or how to deal with myself. I couldn't eat for days. And then days turned into weeks and weeks turned months without a full meal. I would eat crackers here and there so I wouldn't die but it was way less than I needed to stay healthy... I still don't know what to do because they both moved on and re-married they completely cut me out of everything"

She stared off into space remembering it all. Then regained consciousness and turned to me.
"So what's your story Scarlett?"
"What? No. Why doesn't Ava go?"
She gave me a disappointed face.
"She doesn't even know whats going on"
Ava looked up from the finger that she was starring at.
"What?"
"See"
Uggggghhhh...
"Okay okay. I'll go"
They all turned their head to hear my story. Even harper looked interested

"Two years ago when I was thirteen my mom was into some deep debt and I found her in the woods one night completely hysterical and she was crying and she was bleeding from the abdomen as if someone had stabbed her"

"I tried to get her to the house so that my dad could take us to the hospital but I couldn't drag her fast enough and she died right there in my arms" Their faces looked sad, Ava was confused. Harper pushed her hair out of her face and was actually paying attention. I continued.

"I had to leave her in the woods so that I could bring my dad to her but he took so long and her body was already getting cold. Ever since then. Ever since I saw my mom die right in front of me I started doing drugs to try and forget but they were working all wrong. So I quit them and just completely iced everybody out. I became angry with myself so I lashed out at other people and they became distant from me. And I guess that's why I'm here"
I looked down at my pillow.
"Damn" said Ava
I laughed because I'm not sure how much of that she actually remembers.
"Okay can someone else go because now I feel weird" Harper looked nervous.

"Ill go" she said. Her voice was a lot different than I thought it would be. Her voice is somewhat high pitched but still quiet. Sort if like a mouse.

"Even though my story is no where near as interesting as Scarlett's"

This is so odd. She has never said anything more than a word here and there and now she's ready to spill her life story out to us. We all sat anxiously waiting for her to begin,

"I'm an ophan and my adoptive parents sent me here because I wouldn't move or talk for days"

Thats it? I got so excited for that? Beautiful.

Ava looked confused as always.
"So... depression?" She said to break the silence.
"What?" Said harper
"Well you said that you wouldn't speak or move for days that's obviously a lack of motivation which is one of the main signs of being depressed. What you have is depression"

We all stared at her. Then I leaned towards Victoria and whispered.
"So is she stupid or smart?" She paused with her eyes wide with disbelief.
"I've been with her for 7 months and I have no idea"
Ava looked back at us and then closed her eyes. She put her hand on her forehead and rolled it back like she had a head ache.
"Oh god I forgot to feed my freaking cat!!" Then she ran out of room yelling 'mittens'
Then Victoria ran off after her
"AVA YOU DO NOT HAVE A FREAKING CAT! YOU IDIOT!"

My eyes met with Harpers and I'm pretty sure we were thinking the same thing.
What the hell.