one night stand

48

Tw ; labour

Your days are completely different now, you've always got something to do now. You're super occupied and you're hanging around. Some days are more difficult than others and some are so much more fun but it's all going stable now and you've found your routine that works well for jungkook and yourself.

He goes to work and returns early, meanwhile, you spend the day with the little one, constantly watching her even when she's sleeping, its...soothing in a way. It helps relieve all your stress even though the little one is the major stress factor.

She drinks pretty well, she's got her little routine too. Always wakes up at 4 am drinks some milk, pees in the next 30 minutes then falls asleep and wakes up in another 2 hours. Misoo loves her sleep and you're so thankful for that because it allows you to sleep well too. You take naps whenever she sleeps and the little one is so quiet, you don't even hear her cries sometimes.

Her cries are sweet, she's so soft, it always makes you pout. You are so lucky to have Jungkook with you because even when he's dead tired, even when work is so stressful he always, always leaves it at the office. Never does he bring his work, home.

Sometimes you both would get into a little argument about this and he would always tell "When I come home, I'm taking care of my girlfriend and child and no fucking work comes in between us."

and it would always shut you up cause the second he lets those words out, next he's pulling you into his arms and hugging you. You've grown so much in the past few months, you've learned to be patient, more understanding and just...listen sometimes.

Your stubborn nature is alive but it doesn't show as often as you used to. You've learned to grasp the situation first and understand it, being stoned to your words or actions doesn't work all the time.

You feel stronger each day but....you can't cover up feeling weak sometimes. Sure, you've always felt confident about yourself and your appearance but that was a different life, now... you're a mom, a mother to a beautiful daughter and you've changed, you've gotten bigger in certain areas,

the little stretch marks do show and...you don't feel very confident anymore, some days you motivate yourself, compliment yourself and it works, it helps but with all the changes, you noticed how you barely spend time with Jungkook.

Insecure thoughts pick up your mind and you can't help but feel as though you're the cause of this...distance. Jungkook comes back home and spends all his time with the little one, he doesn't want to miss anything anymore so he makes sure he spends his free time after work with her which is understandable but...

you feel insecure about this and thoughts like 'am i not... attractive enough?' always trigger you. Jungkook on the other hand is so happy to be here in this moment, in all the moments with the little one and you. he takes you both on drives, for ice cream, for dinners and anything in which he can make your days different. You deserve to have fun too, you know.

Just because you're a mom now doesn't mean you're supposed to stay home all day, just taking care of the baby. You should be out there, enjoying life. And he makes sure that you do.Some days, you don't feel like dressing up, and that's fine.

He never says a word, because he gets it. Lazy days are part of life, and he thinks they're kind of cute, honestly.But lately... he's noticed something different. The way you've started dressing, it's not really you. It's not that he wants you to wear anything specific; it's not about the clothes.

It's about why you're wearing them. You've been hiding your body, shrinking yourself, and that's what hurts him.He's always loved how confident you were, it's part of what drew him to you.