Turning the Pages

Chapter 1

Patrick POV:

" come on T, I gotta get to work."
" daddy what am I gonna do all day?"
" you can help on set and watch and then we'll go out to eat."
" can Ellen come?"
" I don't know sweetheart she's gotta get home too."
" daddy we have to go school shopping too."
" yes I know sweetheart now please get in the car so we can go."
We got onto the set and I helped T out of the car.everybody knew about the car accident by now. We walked to the trailers where everybody was standing outside mine and Ellen's.
" ELLIE!!!" T chirped and gave Ellen a hug
"Hello tallulah how are you?"
" I'm good."
" hey." I said looking at Ellen
" hey."
" come on T why don't you come with me and come say hello to Shonda." Sarah said
" thanks."I mouthed
" you okay?" Ellen asked
" I'm fine. How's Chris?"
" he's good."
" good."
" pat..."
" I don't want to talk about it Ellen"
" you're gonna have to soon."
" T wants you to come out to eat with us and then go school shopping."
" sure sounds like fun."
There was a knock on the door and then Sarah came in.
" shonda wants us on set in 5. Pat, tallulah is with her."
" okay thanks Sarah." I said
Ellen was just staring at me with pity eyes. They all were. They felt bad that Jill left and I had to raise T all on my own.
" let's go." I said
" pat you need to talk to somebody. You're upset everybody can tell."
" I'm fine."
" no you're not. Jill left pat. You're a single dad now. The press is all over this story. You're struggling so if you need help...." I cut her off
" I AM FINE. I AM DOING THIS ON MY OWN AND YEAH ITS SCARY BUT IM TAKING IT ONE STEP AT A TIME. JILL IS DEAD ELLEN SHE DIDNT JUST LEAVE. SHE GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT AND FRICKIN DIED. TALLULAH STILL ASKS SO MANY QUESTIONS THAT I DONT WANT TO ANSWER. SO I DONT NEED YOUR PITY OR ANYBODY ELSE'S. WHAT I NEED IS FOR EVERYONE TO LEAVE ME ALONE AND FOR ME TO DO WHAT MY DAUGHTER NEEDS. SO IF THAT INCLUDES GOING OUT TO EAT AND SCHOOL SHOPPING INSTEAD OF HOLDING HER BECAUSE SHE MISSES HER MOMMY THAN I SAY THATS A PRETTY GOOD DAMN DAY! I AM DOING MY BEST. YOU ARE JUST GOING TO HAVE TO RESPECT THAT. DO ME A FAVOR DONT COME OUT TO EAT BECAUSE I DONT NEED ANYMORE PITY. IVE GOT IT. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE."
Everybody was staring at us by now because we were on set.
" Pat...." Eric said
" let's just get this over with so I can go home."
We completed our scenes and T was outside with everybody else.
" come on T we gotta go."
" is Ellie coming?"
" no sweetie I'm sorry."
" but daddy...."
" tallulah that's enough. She is not coming so get in the car so we can go."

END OF THE NIGHT....

" daddy can you read me a bed time story?" T asked. I was looking up plane tickets for the both of us.
" sure baby girl I'll be up in a few. Go get changed."
I heard her sigh and it broke my heart. I kept looking for flights and finally booked one.
I went up to her room.
" which one do you want me to read?" I asked. She was 5 but she knew her stories word for word.
" the one with Bambi."
I picked up the book and started to read it to her.
She fell asleep and then I went to go back and I packed her things since we were leaving tomorrow after work. I finally laid down and closed my eyes as I felt the empty spot that she once laid.