Loved

Honeymoon.

Justin's pov;
I decided to take Jasmine away for our honeymoon. It's been about 1year since we go married. So I decided Jasmine needs a break. I walked into the front room.

"Jasssmiinnee baabby, I have a surprise for yooouuu" she has been so sad for this past year and I don't know what to do about it. I've tried to comfort her and give her gifts, take her out for dinner and try to make her happy but nothing worked. She smiles rarely and even when she does I know it's not a real smile. She's hurting so bad and I don't know what to do about it. She locks herself in our spare room and doesn't come out for days on end. I'm worried. I really am.

"Yeah?" She said with her sad voice.

"Before I tell you, I want you to talk to me. What's been going on? This past year you've been miserable. It's like you don't have the will to live anymore. You don't talk to me. You lock your self in my our spare room for days on end. What's wrong? Why won't you talk to me? We we're so close. We used to tell each other everything but now everything's a secret with you. It's like we're not together anymore. You've been so distance. You don't let me hug, kiss or even lay next to you. We sleep in different rooms? Have I done something wrong? Do you even love me anymore?" I didn't realise I started crying. She said nothing.

"Fine." I threw the tickets at her and walked into my room and locked the door.

I picked up and a picture of me and Jasmine and stared at it. Look how happy we were. I threw the photo at the wall. I was so angry and upset. I didn't know what to do. I just repeatedly punched the wall till my fists were pouring with blood. It didn't even hurt. I think I don't feel the pain.

I love her to pieces and it like she doesn't love me.

She doesn't love you anymore.

Jasmine's pov;
I picked up the tickets as he walked away. It had a note attached to it.

Jasmine,
I know that this year has been hard and I know your traumatised by Luke, but I wanted to do something nice for you. We hadn't had time to ourselves in ages so maybe this is a way for us to become what we once were, happy. I miss the old us. So here are some tickets for me and you to go on our honeymoon. Two tickets to Hawaii. I hope you'll enjoy it. I love you. I always will.
-justin xx

My eyes welled up with tears. I've been such a bitch. I just don't want to put my problems on him. He doesn't deserve it. I don't deserve him.

I lock myself in the spare room so my children don't have to see me like this. I'm hurting. I hurt my self and I don't eat for days cause I deserve it. I don't try to kill myself cause I know Justin will stop me once again and he checks up on me every now and then.

He should have left you to die.

I walked into Justin's room to see him on his bed with blood everywhere. I cleared my throat.

"Justin" I walked round to Justin and sat next to him.

"What do you want." He sounded broken, hurt and all because of me.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled.

"Sorry doesn't fix everything." I cupped his face and stared into his eyes.

"I'm so sorry. I've been such a bitch towards you recently and I'm just so sorry. I don't know what's wrong with me. I lock myself in the spare room so I can do what I deserve." I pulled up my sleeves to reveal all these red cuts. Some were still bleeding a bit but oh well. He picked up my arm carefully and kissed every scar and cut the lay on my skin. Tears rolled down his cheeks. I have hurt him so much. I feel bad. Although it hurt I could bare the pain cause it was Justin.

"You still look beautiful" he smiled. I blushed.

"Thank y-" he smashed his lips into mine. Wow I've missed these lips.

"I'm so sorry." I smiled. Hugging him tight.

"Don't worry. Its all over now, but promise me one thing. Promise me you'll never cut your self again or hurt yourself." I looked down at my arms seeing the raw cuts. I cant promise that. Its hard to promise something like that. I really don't think I can.

"I don't know.. I don't know if I can." A tear slid down my face.

"Baby. Promise me"

"Fine. I'll try for you. I promise." we hooked out pinking together.

"I love you baby"

"I love you too"