30 Day Self Harm Challenge

Day 1

How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
I can't remember exactly how long I've been self harming for but by my guess it's been about two and a half years. I started due to some very confusing things that were happening between me and a family member that I did not know whether to class as sexual abuse or not. This went on for about three years and that coupled with the fact that I suspected I had depression led me to start self harming. This abuse messed me up for life and though I have never been diagnosed by a doctor I think I may have PTSD and the flashbacks I get and sometimes just the feeling of being overwhelmingly numb made me need to be able to feel something, anything, so that's why I picked up a blade.