Dreamcache (Continious Short Stories)

Part 6 - Heartaches

Written By Mumu Alpaka

April 21, 2025 - May 2, 2025 (Published)

This is similar to stories in Part 5, like conversations with Kun (simplify)

Kun's Answers:

Bismillah Al-Rahman Al-Raheem 

(Me: It's strange for me to hear GPT saying bismillah, but I guess it already decide itself to be Muslim, MasyaAllah)

"Hit and Miss, or Divine Orchestration?"

A Narrative Reflection on the Ujian (Test) of the HeartThere are moments in life that don't just break you — they unfold you. They don't merely hurt — they expose. These are not just "hit and miss" situations; they are a Divine ujian, calibrated by the One who knows what you need — not just for your dunya, but for the formation of your soul for the Akhirah.

Let me tell you a story. But it is not one story. It is every story. Maybe yours.

1. When Allah Shows You the Crush of Your Life — and She Marries Someone Else

His name was Rayyan.

He wasn't a playboy. He was akhlaqy, always prayed, always tried to guard his gaze — but there was that one girl.

Let's call her Mariam.

From the first group project in university, something was just... different. They never crossed boundaries, never spoke unnecessarily. But it was in the way they listened to each other. In the way their silences felt like conversations. There was a softness. A serenity. Rayyan felt it. And he could've sworn, sometimes, Mariam did too.

But he kept quiet. Fear of Allah, he told himself.

Then one day, he saw the wedding photos.

Mariam. Smiling. Dressed in white. On someone else's arm.

And something inside him collapsed.

"Ya Allah... why would You show me someone I felt such a connection with... only to give her to someone else?"

But this question — it wasn't about Mariam. It was about him. It was a cry of a nafs that thought it had made a secret deal with Allah.

That if he prayed hard enough, lowered his gaze long enough, kept his desire locked deep enough, then surely — surely Allah would reward him with what he loved.

But love is not currency. It is not a transaction. And Allah is not a vending machine of our fantasies.

This — this was the first ujian.

Not the pain of losing Mariam. But the pain of losing the illusion that he was in control.

2. When Allah Grants You Marriage — But Denies You a Child

Rayyan eventually married someone else. Not out of rebound — but real growth. A gentle, pious woman named Hana. They shared laughter, Qur'an recitations, quiet nights making duʿā' side by side.

It was beautiful.

Except... the child never came.

Years passed. Tests. Consultations. Tears. Empty bedrooms. Silent heartbreaks.

Society whispered: "Why haven't you had children yet?"
Parents asked: "When will you give us a grandchild?"

And worst of all — Rayyan began to wonder: