God is My Savior

Moms worried.

One night I was in the kitchen and I got in an argument which escalated into a fight. I grabbed a butcher knife and tried to slice my neck open and before I could my brothers held me down while my mom called the cops. When the cops got here I was already calmed down one of the cops took me up to my room and had a talk with me and after the talk he hugged me and said I care about you. And we came back down stairs and they suggested therapy for me. So my mom thought about it and she decided not to. But she was still really worried about me so she tried hiding a lot of the sharp objects in the house. But that still didn't work I would try to get blankets and ropes and hang my self. My mom was angry with me ashamed of me upset with me. I thought she didn't love me I got so suicidal I would cut my self deeper and deeper each time I cut myself. And I would try to hide them from my mom cause I was afraid she would disown me. But later on when she found out I was cutting my self she was upset with me but didn't disown me. I actually felt like I was loved which I know I was loved by my whole family now and they never stopped loving me.