Don't leave me... 《Unfinished》

Chapter 17

Song: little do you know by Alex and Sierra (Nightcore version)
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Phil's pov~
I can't stand seeing Dan like this...
I don't think trying to talk to him is going to help...
I sigh and sit back down.
I'm just going to give Dan time to cool down...

Dan's pov~
I can't control my emotions and it's frustrating me. As soon as I locked my door behind me, I plopped down onto my bed and started sobbing.
I know Phil just want to help... but I just want to try to do this on my own. I dont want him worrying about me all the time...
I honestly don't know what to do.
I love him too much to lie to him... Yet I can't seem to just tell him the truth.
My heart feels like its been crushed... I just want Phil to love me back... But I don't even know if what he said at the hospital was true.
I mean, he was dying.
He probably said that just to spare me.
More tears escaped my eyes and soaked into my pillow as I thought of the moment when I thought I lost Phil.
My world crashed around me and I felt so alone.
I suddenly heard a knock in the door.
"Dan? Can I please come in?" I could hear Phil's voice on the other side.
I sat up and quickly wiped the tears off my face.
"Sure.. " I responded.
I looked down while he opened the door because I knew my eyes were probably red from crying...
"Dan we really need to talk... But calmly this time.." he says.
I take a deep breath and nod my head.
Phil then continues, "I care about you Dan... I really do. I really need to know what's going on with you. You're my best friend and I hate seeing you like this."
My body stiffened at the word, "Friend".
I took another deep breath and slowly looked up at Phil.
"Phil... I'm going to be completely honest now... Because if I don't tell you what's happening now, I'm probably going to regret not telling you later... "
Phil looked a bit confused so I continued,
"Phil... There are two things I'm going to tell you...
Okay so for a long while, before you were even in the hospital, Ive been feeling different..... a bad different almost sad. So after you came back from the hospital I finally looked up the symptoms of depression, since I thought I may have gotten it again... And sure enough it looked like I did. To make sure, I went to the therapist that one day when I told you I was going out for groceries, and she told me I had developed depression again... Thats why I had that bottle of pills."
Phil stayed quiet for a moment but then spoke up, "Oh Dan... I'm so sorry why didn't you tell this to me before?"
He places his hand on my shoulder and looked into my eyes.
"I didnt want you to worry about me Phil... But you needed to know.. So now you do... "
Phil then suddenly handed me something. I looked to see that it was my Anti-depressants.
I took them and placed them back on my nightstand.
"So what was the other thing you wanted to tell me?" Phil suddenly asked.
"huh?" I replied.
"You said you were going to tell me two things but you only told me one so far," he explained.
My heart started pounding and butterflies started filling my stomach. Nervousness took over me and I knew Phil could tell.
"Dan?"
"It's just... I... I.."
"You what?"
"I... I L.... I... " I couldn't seem to get the words to come out of my mouth.
"Just say it Dan!"
"I LOVE YOU OKAY!?" I suddenly blurted out.
My face turned red and I looked down at my hands.
Tears started falling down my cheeks again, "I said I love you... And I've told you already but you forgot because I told you when you were in the hospital right before-" I paused taking a deep breath, "before I almost lost you.... And you even said you loved me back... But you were probably just saying that..."
Phil stayed silent.
I knew it... He had no words to say because he didn't feel the same. God how embarrassing.
"I knew it, you don't feel the same. Its okay just forget I said anything oka-"
My eyes went wide as Phils hands lifted my chin and pulled me close, pressing his lips onto mine...
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Yay. Update at 2:30am.
I couldn't sleep so I decided to write a short chapter. Hope you're enjoying the story. GN (･'з'･)