Broken Stone

Same Old

So... Hi.. Blah blah. My name is Alica Stone and I hate love. All it leads to is pain.

How many of you have actually been in love with something/someone then it breaks your heart. Because quite frankly that's happened to me my whole life.

My parents died, I live with my older sister who just graduated college and guess what?

She is heartbroken. Her and her boyfriend have been fighting for the last few months. But you want to know what's the worst thing in life.

When my parents died I was 9 and my sister, Alison she was just about to start high school. I'm not that much younger only a few years. But when my parents died we had to go live with the only aunty we had. She was an alcoholic. A drunk. She was no good to us. But she was the guardian.

Growing up with her, all she said to me was "your too ugly for someone to love you. Let your life be full of pain and heartbreak. No one will ever love you, do you hear me? Get use to it kid, cause nothing is going to change."

I use to sit in my room for days crying. Until last month when I turned 16 and sis graduated from college. She is now 20.

We moved out of that Hag's house and got our own place. All those years my sister use to bring in so many guys. She would date them, cry and get heartbroken.

I avoided all that. My bitch of an aunty ruined my life. I've never had happiness. Only heartbreak like she said. I'm starving. Our money goes towards the house to keep a roof over our heads. And the bills. But not much food. Yes I go to school. I have no friends because everything ends in fucking heartbreak.

Some night I plan suicide but I don't do it cause my sister will be alone then. I barely speak to her but I do love her. I just don't show it so I don't lose her too. She knows this. She is the one who got me away from that drunk bitch. Schools the same everyday. I get ready, I go, I starve, I do some work, I get teased, I come home, I cry, I think about my life growing up, my parents dying, and everything that drunk said to me.