The Gay Sugar Daddy

Chapter 30

Aiandra's POV

Shanri La was good pero ang kasama ko? Hindi! He still avoids the topic at hindi ko nga alam kung ano ba ang silbi ng Shangri La na to kung mas lalo lang ako ma stress sa baklang to. Every hour passed that he remained silent was ripping my heart apart. Was I not enough? Is he starting to find a new replacement for me? Ewan ko! Tear escaped from my eye. Does he realized that choosing me over Javier is not worth it at all? I scrolled to my socials and stalked his account a stupid freak while my hearts was ripped and torn apart. 

Their sweet couple photos as they travel into some countries, their tagged photos from their friends was still there. Untouched. Unmoved. And not deleted. And it pierced my ripped heart that genuine smile! I am jealous. Maybe I was just his past time after all, Maybe I was just assuming things, Maybe that gay just used me to plot revenge, used me for publicity, and most especially he just used me for his desires and lust. 

It is not helping, I turned off my phone at ipinatong ko iyon sa ibabaw ng night table ko. I forced to sleep so my swollen and puffy eyes, so it could rest from this pain that from the beginning I knew will happen to me if I did not set a walls. But I didn't built strong wall, I just let him break that wall easily, and now? I had to suffer to the aftermath of my stupidity. My eyes was very tired and I felt asleep and I woke up with the strokes of golden rays hitting my face. It was three pm in the afternoon, I stared to the wide view of the beach, the sound of waves violently hits the shore and the hot salty air guided each wave to splash the fine shore. I checked my phone ten missed calls, I bite my lower lips, He called and that made me forgot what he did a while ago. I browse into my chats his name at the upper notification, He leaves a chat.

"Hello merlat, I've called but maybe you are asleep, anyways Dinner tonight. I need to explain everything." 

I breath heavily, Ayoko na umasa! Maybe I just let this Shangri La finish, and when we come back, I'll leave. I thought being with him feels like the first time I am with him, But this slowly turns into a painful for me. I am not going! I turn off the phone and then I went back to the bed, I want to sleep whole afternoon I need to rest. But my sleep was interrupted by a doorbell.

Tamad akong tumayo at binuksan ang pinto, Si Ezekiel pala, He looks very awkward at hindi alam kung saan babaling. "Hello what do you need?" I ask politely. He cleared his throat, "Just checking on you as per request of your husband can I come in?" He ask and  I plainly smile at him at niluwagan ang pinto. "Yeah sure" 

"I won't take any drama Aiandra, I was actually here because I am here to take you to the dinner you husband set later night" Kumunot naman ang noo ko sa sinabi niya. "I am not coming." I sternly said at him and he just blinked and doesn't expect my response. "Girl you need to go! Luther is trying to take responsibility to you and to your baby" He explained but I shook me head and scoffed " Responsibility? We did not even had a proper and genuine talk about us after he found out I was pregnant with his child! What should I do?" Asik ko but Ezekiel just shrug his shoulder. "Maybe that is the reason why he asked you for a dinner later? You know that dinner would be the perfect timing for y'all to fix the growing conflict between you two. You really need to come Aiandra, the future of you child may depend on what would be the outcome of the dinner later".

"You know beh, if closure man ang mangyari later or whatever, it matter dahil may buhay na naksalalay dito! Even if it would hurt you need to face it."  Ezekiel uttered and i breath heavily and raised both of my hands to concede. "Okay fine." He just smiled and I look myself in the mirror, I look so bland, But Ezekiel has a point anyway. I wore a simple black above the knee dress and applied a simple make up just to hide my puffy eyes and pale lips.

The dinner is five pm para daw maabutan namin ang romantic orange sunset but I intentionally arrived at six pm, madilim na ang palagid dinala ako ni Ezekiel sa rooftop sa isang fine resturant dito sa Shari La. And when I arrived Luther was already there, in his white shirt trying to calm himself. "Luthy" Ezekiel called and when he look into my direction, tumayo agad ito, and he smiled softly at me but a glint of hesitation was visible to his eyes, kinagat ko ang pang-ibaba kong labi dahil parang biglang nabura ang lahat ng galit ko sa kanya ng masilayan ko ang mukha niya, I got melted by his warm smile.  Hindi ko na yun initindi, I just sat to the chair infront of him arms crossed avoiding his gaze, Ezekiel excuse his self so we could talk matters alone, and privately.

 "Thank you for coming" He sincerly said but I tried to answer with attitude "Wala naman akong choice, diba? We should talk about the child I am carrying, para matapos na to" I plainly replied and then he did not uttered another word, and we eat the food on the table silently, only the soft music create a noise between us. "I am sorry merlat, I was really busy this past few weeks and I had to take care personally-" I did not let him finish because the silence between us is enough for me to burst out. "Tell me Luther, yan lang ba talaga ang dahilan? Then why do you need to avoid me? Akala mo ba hindi ko napapansin? And even our contract! ayaw mo nga pag-usapan! I know you just used me for publicity pero bakit pinaramdam mo talaga?! I felt so d*mn used Luther!" I can't barely speak bacause tears are also streaming down into my cheeks.

"Hindi ganon merlat, Please listen to me it is not like that" He pleaded but I did not believe him "Then what?! You just lusted me? At nung may nabuo ay bigla ka nalaang nanlamig?!" Hindi ko na kaya, My heart ached as I stay here a little longer kaya I wiped my tears at tumayo but Luther's hands was fast to grab my wrist, not forceful but with desperation, our eyes met and then I saw his eyes filled with tears, guilt and longing for something.

"I was guilty merlat, I took Javier's rehabilitation personally kahit na nandoon si Hailey ay ako na mismo ang nag asikaso nun lahat. I know someday he will understand. That is why I was very busy after you got discharged from the hospital" He started " And about our baby, Don't think that I regreted it, Because God knows how long I prayed for that blessing to come" He paused and sigh heavily and he continues again. "About the contract, I need time about it merlat. I am terrified of how our child will suffer if we will continue what is stated in the contract, And many what if's are running to my head. What if I am not the father our child deserves? What if your image will be ruined because the fahter of your child is a gay? " He uttered that mede me stunned.

"Our contract that we agreed before are still running to my head merlat, Ayokong sundin na kung ano ang napag-usuapan natin. I know that I was the one who stated that, but I don't know? I just woke up one day that your laugh made me forget about all we agreed from the beginning and I also forgot who I was supposed to be." He said with apuffy eys as his tears still running to his cheeks "You are the only one who made me feel loved for being me, not just my fame and reputation." He uttered, and that was the point where I just found myself crying while he hugged me. Those word melted down all my doubt and pain away, I never knew the dinner I thought would be my worst nightmare could turn into something emotional like this.. 

"I don't know if I can be the man that you need Aiandra, but I swear, I love You" He paused and my heart skipped a beat, Damn! He already mentioned those three words the words that I could hear from him. "I'll love you, and our child more than I ever loved myself" He said as he placed his huge palm at the top of my growing belly. Tears are streaming nonstop to my cheeks as I hugged him and He reached for my lips, Carefuly and with pure affection and not lust. He kissed it, and that kissed resolved everything.  Nawala lahat ng pait at galit ko sa baklang to, Hinampas ko siya ng marahan dahil sa kaunting inis na naramdaman ko " I had a lot of sleepless nights thinking if you are already tired of me, Nakakainis ka!" I said at pasimple ko siyang hinapas but he just softly laugh and he put our forhead together and then reached for it to kiss as a mark of assurance. "Ikaw lang yung unang minahal ko na ko alam kung sa paanong paraan".