Just One Look // Cameron Dallas

Chapter 17

PAIGES POV
I was so drained from everything. I honestly didn't even want to go home. I would be all by myself. It won't be the same without Zac. I miss him so much.

"Hey Paige." Nash said coming in. He looked really upset. "What's wrong?"I asked. "Uhm well Cameron tried to kill himself." He said shaking."What? Is he okay?" I asked sitting up.

"I don't know they won't tell me anything." Nash said. "He thinks it's his fault Nash.Its not. It's nobody's but the guy that's doing this." I said with tears in my eyes. "Nash I can't loose him too." I said breaking down.

He came over and hugged me and said"I know me too." The doctor came back in and told me I was free to go. Nash helped me get up and get some of my clothes on. I went up to one of the nurses. "Do you have any news on Cameron Dallas?" I asked.

"Uhm yes he is stable now and he's in room 457 right down the hall." she said smiling. I nodded and told Nash "I need to do this by myself." He understood and went back to the waiting room.

I came up to the room where Cameron was at.I was so nervous to go in. So many emotions were going through me. I was upset and angry and disappointed about the whole situation. I honestly didn't even know what I felt.

I walked in and saw him. He had bandages all around his wrists and had an IV connected to him. He looked horrible. I went up and sat on a chair right by the bed. I grabbed onto his hand and started rubbing circles on his hand.

"Cameron it is not your fault." I whispered. "Yes it is." He replied. I jumped up and saw that he was awake. "Cameron I'm so glad you're okay." I said standing up looking at him.

"I'm not okay." He said. "Paige I messed up big time. If I wouldn't have gotten into drugs this wouldn't have happened. I'm such a horrible person. I deserve to die." He said with tears pouring from his face.

"Don't you ever say that." I said wiping the tears away. "It's true. I've screwed up my whole life. I got into drugs because I was so depressed. I had so much pressure about everything I did. I didn't want to let any of my fans down.I had to escape from reality and the drugs helped me.I would pop a few pills from time to time if the weed and cocaine wasn't doing it at the time. I don't deserve to be alive. Zac had nothing to do with this and yet he is gone and I'm still here. I hate myself so much." Cameron said looking up at the ceiling.

"I had no idea you felt this way. You are depressed and didn't know how to deal with it so you went to drugs. You are not a screw up and what happened to Zac was not your fault.Cameron you need help. I will always be here for you."I said hugging him.

He hugged me tight and pulled me into the bed with him. "Paige I'm so sorry." He said bawling his eyes out. "Shh Cam just get some rest." I said rubbing his back.

Soon enough I heard him snoring and looked down and he was passed out. I don't blame anything on him. I forgive him for what he's done and I'll be here to support him through his recovery. I can't just leave him. Zac wouldn't want me too. He would be proud of me.

I layed my head on Cameron and before I knew it I was passed out too.